On the Bridges needing Built.
I was trying to decide what it is that I want to talk about today in my lj and I hit on the idea of further exploring the fitz delema. Now first off I want make a quick note to anyone reading this journal entry or the previous one for that matter. Fitz can read this journal anytime he wants. I know that all of my public entries have been available to him for some time now. I actually might still have is comments on a block list so I will have to check into that. Anyway on to my thoughts for the day.
Me and Fitz used to be really close. For a time we even practiced the gift together, but a force came between us. I can't name this force for sure. I have blamed him and I am sure he has blamed me. Essentially we haven't actually spoken to each other in more then 4 years. The last year of our communications were through LJ or other online media. There are many reasons for the break down and I won't go into them here. I was meditating the other day and I kept seeing fitz's face. My meditations are no longer haunted by the wanderings of a stalker so usually I find them peacefull. however this was my first time meditating in nearly two years so who knows what my spirit needed to express. I don't like the feeling that there is something I am supposed to know but can't quite touch. I have read his journal recently and nothing in it made any clear connections between us. So I guess I should just leave a sleeping dog lie.
Anyone with imput, whether you know the situation or not is welcome to offer thier thoughts.
Dave