It's been a while...
Hi there folks!
I've been gone from here - well posting wise anyways - for a good while, but I think I'm about to make a return. My mom joined Facebook. Gah. I don't feel like I can use that as a forum for my little stress reliever comments through the day anymore, and it's starting to really get to me. I work with my mom, so the walls have ears for any conversation that I have, and now she's all over FB all the time.
Ugh.
This is gonna be a rambling post - apologies in advance.
I am tired. In the past 3 out of 4 weekends, I have traveled 1300-1400 miles each weekend. I am a homebody people! All of this travel is not good for me. My batteries are low, & I am running on fumes.
I want to quit my job, but I feel like I can't. Working for my parents is taking its toll on me.
I feel like a failure as a pet owner in some part. Our cats are "inappropriately eliminating" and I have reached the end of my rope. I have tried all the tricks to solve the problem. My mom has agreed to take them as outside cats - they have no front claws. I feel like I am sentencing them to death.
I am frustrated - oh soooo very frustrated - with my body right now. I have been working with a trainer & watching what I eat for weeks, and I haven't lost a pound. Yes, I have lost inches in some ares, but DAMNIT I need to see the scale take a downward trend. I am tired of always being the fat girl at every gathering that I go to. I am tired of never feeling like I look good. I am ready to just say to hell with it.
I am pretty sure at this point that I am never going to be a mom. There I said it. Colossal failure in that area. David wants so badly to be a dad, and I can't make that happen. We've been trying to adopt since December of 2008, and at this point, I have given up all hope that it will happen. I have better odds of winning the damned lottery at this point.
Sorry for all of this downer crap, but it's all I got right now.
I've been gone from here - well posting wise anyways - for a good while, but I think I'm about to make a return. My mom joined Facebook. Gah. I don't feel like I can use that as a forum for my little stress reliever comments through the day anymore, and it's starting to really get to me. I work with my mom, so the walls have ears for any conversation that I have, and now she's all over FB all the time.
Ugh.
This is gonna be a rambling post - apologies in advance.
I am tired. In the past 3 out of 4 weekends, I have traveled 1300-1400 miles each weekend. I am a homebody people! All of this travel is not good for me. My batteries are low, & I am running on fumes.
I want to quit my job, but I feel like I can't. Working for my parents is taking its toll on me.
I feel like a failure as a pet owner in some part. Our cats are "inappropriately eliminating" and I have reached the end of my rope. I have tried all the tricks to solve the problem. My mom has agreed to take them as outside cats - they have no front claws. I feel like I am sentencing them to death.
I am frustrated - oh soooo very frustrated - with my body right now. I have been working with a trainer & watching what I eat for weeks, and I haven't lost a pound. Yes, I have lost inches in some ares, but DAMNIT I need to see the scale take a downward trend. I am tired of always being the fat girl at every gathering that I go to. I am tired of never feeling like I look good. I am ready to just say to hell with it.
I am pretty sure at this point that I am never going to be a mom. There I said it. Colossal failure in that area. David wants so badly to be a dad, and I can't make that happen. We've been trying to adopt since December of 2008, and at this point, I have given up all hope that it will happen. I have better odds of winning the damned lottery at this point.
Sorry for all of this downer crap, but it's all I got right now.