Take it as you will.

[davemnavarro]

I've sat here for over an hour now, staring at the box and trying to convey thought through my fingertips to explain why I left and why I would come back now. There's no easy explanation and I could throw a hundred reasons at you, but they'd all be secondary right now. Let's just leave it at what it is. I came back. I never stay away for very long

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[sheryl_crow]

I've always said this place is like a black hole. You're damned if you do, and you're damned if you do. Welcome back.

[davemnavarro]

It sucked me back in and even when I was gone, it wasn't that far from my thoughts. I owe you an apology more than I do anyone else. If I'd known or if you'd told me what you were going through, it might have turned out differently. I broke my promise when I said I'd do right by you and I want you to know how sorry I am. If there's anything I can do, I'd still drop everything to be there for you.

[sheryl_crow]

If I'd known or if you'd told me what you were going through, it might have turned out differently.

First of all, I'm going to chalk that up to bad wording and not jump down your throat just yet. Second, that's no way to keep somebody, or even get somebody, by guilting them into staying with you. It's not the way I do things. Third, my current situation was much a surprise to me as anyone else, so that being said, I'll regale you with the fabulous story sometime. It's not really interesting so much as fast paced and head turning. Could make a good action movie, I think.

The truth is, I forgave you a long time ago. Still, the apology is appreciated and accepted. I could always use more friends, you know? I'm just relieved the villagers can now stop rioting outside my house, and blaming me for your disappearance. Ha.

[davemnavarro]

If you're going to jump down my throat, take your shoes off first. I don't like the taste of them and they'd just make you get stuck. It wouldn't have been guilt, Sheryl. It was real for me, what we had and if I'd known what you were going through, it wouldn't have ended the way that it did. I want to hear the story whenever you want to tell it. I don't want animousity between us. It was fucked what I did and I accept full responsibility for it. I'd offer to rebuild it from scratch, but that's not my choice or my place to even ask for that kind of forgiveness.

Haha, there were villagers? I was hoping they'd all go over to Carmen's and leave you alone.

[sheryl_crow]

Ba dum ching. Guilt, pity, whatever. It was real for me too, and I was sorry to see it end, but you know...you were long gone before I even knew I had cancer, so, you know. I don't really believe that all would have been mended by that realization. I could go into details, but I'll save that for when I'm not feeling so overexposed by prying eyes. I don't feel any animosity toward you. I did despise you for a time, but you know. Time heals all wounds, gives you new ones, and occasionally pats you on the head for a job well done. You're forgiven, so stop beating yourself up before I have to go and kick you in the ass.

Man, I thought they were kidding when they said they wanted my head on a pike. The upside, I've learned to sleep with one eye open. Maybe they've split into too groups and rioting at her place as well. I'd check but I'm kinda afraid to go outside.

[davemnavarro]

It wouldn't have been pity either. I can't explain it now and I don't want to do it here either. Ever wake up one day and realize that you had everything you really wanted and it scare the fuck out of you? That's a start. We'll have this talk soon when we're both around at the same time.

How's that changed your quality of sleep with the one eye open? It sounds like you'd only get half as much. You shouldn't be afraid of them. I think they just want an autograph and to ask you out, since you're not Mrs. Lance Armstrong.

[sheryl_crow]

Well, even if we're not, you know how to reach me. I'm readily accessible like that. For the record, I'm around most nights because honestly, it's either that or take up a new hobby. Say, knitting.

You'd think, right? Nah. I still manage to get a good 12 hours because that's what us old people need along with a cane and dentures. Ha, well, they're out of luck. I'm really thinking of giving back into the hype since he keeps calling every day.

[davemnavarro]

I'm working up to it and bought a thesaurus and a dictionary to try to pick out which were the right words to use. The only way I could picture you knitting is if you had a kid, then maybe knitting those baby booties that are all the rage.

Oh right, I keep forgetting that you were around to watch the Magna Carta being signed and Franklin invent electricity with a key and his kite. On the next holiday, I'll get you one of those Rascal scooters to help you get around. I was under the impression you'd already moved on from almost being Mrs. Tour de France.

[sheryl_crow]

See, now you're just being a smartass, which is something I can appreciate. Keep it up. I can talk about nothing forever. Yeah...and considering said event can't happen for at least two years, I have plenty of time to learn. Actually, just enough time to let the booties go out of style. My luck, great.

What the hell is a Rascal scooter, and I'm going to ignore the small notion I'm having that I should know this. Whatever. I never technically was going to be Mrs. Tour de France. But I don't need to tell you about over the top publicity stunts. You know.