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I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest who'd have known
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed, to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone
I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never set foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault
I never conquered, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I'd survived
I can't wait till I get home
To pass the time in my room alone
that is a great song. the lyrics are simple yet so amazing. the really make you think about people, like wonder if anyone you know feels this way. sometimes, it's right in front of your face and you don't even know it. i try to stick up for people when they are getting made fun of and i can see that they are taking it to heart. I don't understand how anyone can purposely try and hurt someone. it seems so wrong. a few months ago i decided i would try to keep what i think about others as nice as possible, even if i clearly dislike them. why should i talk about them. what if everyone does that to the person and my one remark is the last straw and sets them over the edge. i know all my life i was made fun of by a lot of people and i couldn't take it. i never let myself get that down from it though. i never had many friends. when i grew up, in my old neighborhood i wasn't allowed to have any friends outside of school. then i moved here and i was allowed to because it was a better neighborhood. i had quite a few friends, but then that sort of drifted when i entered middle school. at that point i didn't go out once for 2 and a half of the 3 years i was there. it was rough. i had no friends and i was made fun of a lot. freshmen and sophmore year of high school were very similar, but not as bad. i made a few friends. i'm pretty happy with myself where i am now. the past year i think i have completely changed. i don't let people who would try and hurt me get me down anymore. i just wouldn't listen to them and eventually i think a lot of them respected me more. they knew i didn't like it and they sort of let off. i think most people are nice to me. i don't know if there's a real reason, but i know i try and be nice to everyone. if i make fun of someone it's all in fun and sarcasm. i don't deliberately hurt or try to hurt someone and i hope they know that. i'm not trying to be hypocritical. my new view on life has put me in a mode in which i hate nothing anymore. it's too strong of a word and i'm only a teenager. i haven't even begun to crack into the real world. this is all just a mere test for the real world. you can't let people in high school get you down. everyones too immature. i mean, i don'thave many friends still, and i don't do much with my life anymore, but i am happy where i am. i'm sorry i rambled on for so long. goodnight, dave.
I laughed the loudest who'd have known
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed, to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone
I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never set foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault
I never conquered, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I'd survived
I can't wait till I get home
To pass the time in my room alone
that is a great song. the lyrics are simple yet so amazing. the really make you think about people, like wonder if anyone you know feels this way. sometimes, it's right in front of your face and you don't even know it. i try to stick up for people when they are getting made fun of and i can see that they are taking it to heart. I don't understand how anyone can purposely try and hurt someone. it seems so wrong. a few months ago i decided i would try to keep what i think about others as nice as possible, even if i clearly dislike them. why should i talk about them. what if everyone does that to the person and my one remark is the last straw and sets them over the edge. i know all my life i was made fun of by a lot of people and i couldn't take it. i never let myself get that down from it though. i never had many friends. when i grew up, in my old neighborhood i wasn't allowed to have any friends outside of school. then i moved here and i was allowed to because it was a better neighborhood. i had quite a few friends, but then that sort of drifted when i entered middle school. at that point i didn't go out once for 2 and a half of the 3 years i was there. it was rough. i had no friends and i was made fun of a lot. freshmen and sophmore year of high school were very similar, but not as bad. i made a few friends. i'm pretty happy with myself where i am now. the past year i think i have completely changed. i don't let people who would try and hurt me get me down anymore. i just wouldn't listen to them and eventually i think a lot of them respected me more. they knew i didn't like it and they sort of let off. i think most people are nice to me. i don't know if there's a real reason, but i know i try and be nice to everyone. if i make fun of someone it's all in fun and sarcasm. i don't deliberately hurt or try to hurt someone and i hope they know that. i'm not trying to be hypocritical. my new view on life has put me in a mode in which i hate nothing anymore. it's too strong of a word and i'm only a teenager. i haven't even begun to crack into the real world. this is all just a mere test for the real world. you can't let people in high school get you down. everyones too immature. i mean, i don'thave many friends still, and i don't do much with my life anymore, but i am happy where i am. i'm sorry i rambled on for so long. goodnight, dave.