The more things change, the more they stay the same...
Yes, LJ, this is a dumping of angst, etc. Feel free to comment on how angsty I am being. I know *I* do...
I miss gaming. Sure, I could be doing more of it, but I find that even the games I am in seem to lack something. Oh wait, I know! I want to *run* games, not play in them. Playing is all well and good, but I find much more satisfaction in creating the story and allowing the players to romkp through it.
Which means I need some more players.
I have a game I am running every other Saturday evenings, but the players seem to be spotty at best. Of course this could have something to do with the fact that I have filled just about every weekend with derby stuff for the last several months and they hve become frustrated and confused as to when game actually is supposed to be. >.>
Korray thinks I should drop being the president of the league because she is tired of me having to be at every single thing (which she feels means she has to be at every single thing appropriate for her to be at, too). I think she may have a point.
I enjoy Junior Derby and I am so happy to be helping at the level I am. I think it is wonderful to do all of the things we are doing on the board. The changes we are bringing in the next year are awesome... But if my being president is affecting my daughter's enjoyment of the sport, and I am missing the amount of free time, should I step back? Maybe see about delegating some more of the responsibilities and not feel so obligated to be at every little thing? We'll see where things fall out. Heck, I might not even get elected to the board next season, who knows?
Speaking of the daughter, things are proceeding apace. I sometimes think I am getting through to her and sometimes not. Recently we a conversation where I had to explain to her that no, I do not like being a "dick" to her. In fact, it hurts to have to be mean in the name of parenting. But I have to be, sometimes. And sometimes that means she will ahve to live without computer for a week, or no cel phone for a night and staying in her room... Now if she would just get the point that I back off of her when she actually starts stepping up, things will continue to improve. All I really know is that I am tired of driving home in dread that I, once again, will have to fight with the daughter about not going to all of her classes.. or even showing up at all.
We did get her schedule changed to drop Skate Squad and replace it with an art independnant study as well as working things so she will be working at a faster pace towards completing Algebra. The "Applied Math" class she was registered for is about 5 grade levels below where she actually should be. She wanted pre-algebra to get things before jumping into the waters of quadratics, not a class on fractions and measuring!
So, there you have it. An Angst dump. At least it's a post, right? ;)
I miss gaming. Sure, I could be doing more of it, but I find that even the games I am in seem to lack something. Oh wait, I know! I want to *run* games, not play in them. Playing is all well and good, but I find much more satisfaction in creating the story and allowing the players to romkp through it.
Which means I need some more players.
I have a game I am running every other Saturday evenings, but the players seem to be spotty at best. Of course this could have something to do with the fact that I have filled just about every weekend with derby stuff for the last several months and they hve become frustrated and confused as to when game actually is supposed to be. >.>
Korray thinks I should drop being the president of the league because she is tired of me having to be at every single thing (which she feels means she has to be at every single thing appropriate for her to be at, too). I think she may have a point.
I enjoy Junior Derby and I am so happy to be helping at the level I am. I think it is wonderful to do all of the things we are doing on the board. The changes we are bringing in the next year are awesome... But if my being president is affecting my daughter's enjoyment of the sport, and I am missing the amount of free time, should I step back? Maybe see about delegating some more of the responsibilities and not feel so obligated to be at every little thing? We'll see where things fall out. Heck, I might not even get elected to the board next season, who knows?
Speaking of the daughter, things are proceeding apace. I sometimes think I am getting through to her and sometimes not. Recently we a conversation where I had to explain to her that no, I do not like being a "dick" to her. In fact, it hurts to have to be mean in the name of parenting. But I have to be, sometimes. And sometimes that means she will ahve to live without computer for a week, or no cel phone for a night and staying in her room... Now if she would just get the point that I back off of her when she actually starts stepping up, things will continue to improve. All I really know is that I am tired of driving home in dread that I, once again, will have to fight with the daughter about not going to all of her classes.. or even showing up at all.
We did get her schedule changed to drop Skate Squad and replace it with an art independnant study as well as working things so she will be working at a faster pace towards completing Algebra. The "Applied Math" class she was registered for is about 5 grade levels below where she actually should be. She wanted pre-algebra to get things before jumping into the waters of quadratics, not a class on fractions and measuring!
So, there you have it. An Angst dump. At least it's a post, right? ;)