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Finished a post, finally. It's dated 7th Dec, so I actually spent like 2 days on that.
Went to bed at about 2am last night and I don't know why, I didn't seem to have slept at all so I gave up trying and looked at the time. 6.35am. I don't know, all I can remember was some king and a man. I'm like what...! Did I talk too much about Saul and David last night?
Woke up feeling queasy and all. Decided to lie back onto the bed to try and sleep, but I ended up running to the toilet to vomit. Gosh... It reminded me of what happened last year and Anne and I started talking about the past. lol.
Been thinking about my EE the whole day. The worst part is that I'm thinking about it but not thinking of how to solve the problem. Couldn't.
Stopped vomiting but I've been feeling dizzy. It's 3.33pm now by the way! haha quite sian, the last time I felt this way was last year and I was unfit for school for 3 weeks. This time round, I don't have 3 weeks to spare. Just 1 day. 1 day. Going for youth camp on Friday and leaving for Cambodia on Sunday afternoon at about 4pm? I actually got a feeling that my motivation for going on the mission trip this time round isn't right... Sigh. And when I'm back from all these, Anne will be coming back.
Well, I want her back here. But the thing is, that would mean I'm only left with 11 days to this year and school's gonna start and she's gonna leave, again. Is there some way that we can come to a consensus, like you know, erm... Anne Cheung coming back and 2011 will never come and she will never have to leave again? That would be perfect, yea, for now la, it's perfect. Or I can be less greedy - Anne come back and well, school can start as long as she doesn't leave again. That will be wonderful too. I don't know how this will be possible, but well... haha. With God, all things are possible, so I can always hope for what seems impossible and my hope will never have to be diminished. hahaha
Last year was great. It would have been perfect if someone didn't have to leave
haha I still remember I went to Cambodia grudgingly and the only comfort was that Ryan was there. I didn't know him that well at that point of time but I was just glad that at least we have someone lame (as in funny lame) with us and I would say that I talked to him more than I talked to the others on the trip cos we are both from the same CCA. I wanted to back out somehow by I don't know, feigning something, just so that I could spend more time with someone before she leaves. I didn't do that in the end la, paid the money and all already. I still remember on the first morning we were there, I was leading the prayer meeting and I said to pray for ourselves that we could leave everything into God's hands, all our cares, our concerns, our worries, our burdens, everything... so that we could serve God wholeheartedly. It's probably guess-able why I did that.
Then when I was there, I tried to spend as much time in the night, when we were back in the hotel, in the lobby because that's where I could get wireless access and talk to her on msn. Was reading her blog and chatting with her and I really couldn't wait to get back. In the day it wasn't that bad because I was occupied with the kids and my friends. I was focused okay. Really. haha and I really didn't want to leave Cambodia at the end because I was just... away, away from everything. Then as the 8th day drew closer and closer, I found out what time I was supposed to land in Sg (I'm good I know, leaving a place without know what time I'm supposed to be back) and I realised that I could actually make it to her last performance. Hehe was in cahoots with Sophie and managed to surprise her. haha in all my life, I find that to be the best surprise I've ever done for anyone.
Went to bed at about 2am last night and I don't know why, I didn't seem to have slept at all so I gave up trying and looked at the time. 6.35am. I don't know, all I can remember was some king and a man. I'm like what...! Did I talk too much about Saul and David last night?
Woke up feeling queasy and all. Decided to lie back onto the bed to try and sleep, but I ended up running to the toilet to vomit. Gosh... It reminded me of what happened last year and Anne and I started talking about the past. lol.
Been thinking about my EE the whole day. The worst part is that I'm thinking about it but not thinking of how to solve the problem. Couldn't.
Stopped vomiting but I've been feeling dizzy. It's 3.33pm now by the way! haha quite sian, the last time I felt this way was last year and I was unfit for school for 3 weeks. This time round, I don't have 3 weeks to spare. Just 1 day. 1 day. Going for youth camp on Friday and leaving for Cambodia on Sunday afternoon at about 4pm? I actually got a feeling that my motivation for going on the mission trip this time round isn't right... Sigh. And when I'm back from all these, Anne will be coming back.
Well, I want her back here. But the thing is, that would mean I'm only left with 11 days to this year and school's gonna start and she's gonna leave, again. Is there some way that we can come to a consensus, like you know, erm... Anne Cheung coming back and 2011 will never come and she will never have to leave again? That would be perfect, yea, for now la, it's perfect. Or I can be less greedy - Anne come back and well, school can start as long as she doesn't leave again. That will be wonderful too. I don't know how this will be possible, but well... haha. With God, all things are possible, so I can always hope for what seems impossible and my hope will never have to be diminished. hahaha
Last year was great. It would have been perfect if someone didn't have to leave
haha I still remember I went to Cambodia grudgingly and the only comfort was that Ryan was there. I didn't know him that well at that point of time but I was just glad that at least we have someone lame (as in funny lame) with us and I would say that I talked to him more than I talked to the others on the trip cos we are both from the same CCA. I wanted to back out somehow by I don't know, feigning something, just so that I could spend more time with someone before she leaves. I didn't do that in the end la, paid the money and all already. I still remember on the first morning we were there, I was leading the prayer meeting and I said to pray for ourselves that we could leave everything into God's hands, all our cares, our concerns, our worries, our burdens, everything... so that we could serve God wholeheartedly. It's probably guess-able why I did that.
Then when I was there, I tried to spend as much time in the night, when we were back in the hotel, in the lobby because that's where I could get wireless access and talk to her on msn. Was reading her blog and chatting with her and I really couldn't wait to get back. In the day it wasn't that bad because I was occupied with the kids and my friends. I was focused okay. Really. haha and I really didn't want to leave Cambodia at the end because I was just... away, away from everything. Then as the 8th day drew closer and closer, I found out what time I was supposed to land in Sg (I'm good I know, leaving a place without know what time I'm supposed to be back) and I realised that I could actually make it to her last performance. Hehe was in cahoots with Sophie and managed to surprise her. haha in all my life, I find that to be the best surprise I've ever done for anyone.