A new life
so what is up dudes and other people? so winter is here and the turkey will be here shortly...... so be ready cause its freewriting time!!
i wonder why life is so blah. you know it seems you do lots of shit just to keep up your shitty excitense and it always turns out to be a simple word like blah. because life can never be always good, and def. not always bad........so its somewhere in the middle. anyways ive had a really bad week and ive had a really bad day too, for i spent 30$ on pot and not able to smoke it cause my bro smoked it all. and he wont repay me, or even smoke me out when he always has it. Gwahrrg damn im pissed. i go through the day knowing im going to smoke the next, its not debautry, its just lets me think about other things. which is what i need. actually i need a new group of friends, i cant be chillin w/ my bro and his friends anymore, i need new faces or at least faces that i know but dont hang out w/ on a current bases. anyways i do believe i can be depressive i mean who isnt? but my granpa has manic depression and so does a couple others in my family, but i dont think its that bad. i just let shit get to me. anyways tomorrow when i get up early is the start of my new life. i marked down this date like 4 months ago, its weird but i knew i would need a change on this date, and here it comes. i have no job, my car's broke, i owe geico 200 bucks, i owe some chic more money than that, i still live w/ my parents, im a pothead, i have no girlfriend, in fact im sexually deprived, i hate all people, and most of all im hating whats around me. so new life tomorrow, i hope that pans out, im goin to awaken early and arise anew. however if i wake up late i know its more months of this shit, and i cant take that. so i must get through this shit, i have had a life of feeling like shit, but now that feeling only brings hatred to those i placed it in the first place. so you see i need a change, if not shit could get ugly, and i could hurt those i call close. but dont be alarmed, i am very self-controlled, once again i am just letting shit get to me. i hope a new path will open soon for that would be chill, i still dont know what i want to do in life, but i know i dont want to do this shit anymore. but i am glad i quit unos, i am no longer rushed, i have regain my sence of time. i no longer have to worry about 15 minute ticket times and what-not i just sleep and awake, its so simple. but ok i think i feel better after this write, if you actually read it thats your fault. damn im awed at how many "i" 's i see. hahaha. hey at least thanksgiving is coming, jessie mccarron, you better make the meal so good. haha i know you will, just learn how to make potatoe salad. lol anyways time to press enter
i wonder why life is so blah. you know it seems you do lots of shit just to keep up your shitty excitense and it always turns out to be a simple word like blah. because life can never be always good, and def. not always bad........so its somewhere in the middle. anyways ive had a really bad week and ive had a really bad day too, for i spent 30$ on pot and not able to smoke it cause my bro smoked it all. and he wont repay me, or even smoke me out when he always has it. Gwahrrg damn im pissed. i go through the day knowing im going to smoke the next, its not debautry, its just lets me think about other things. which is what i need. actually i need a new group of friends, i cant be chillin w/ my bro and his friends anymore, i need new faces or at least faces that i know but dont hang out w/ on a current bases. anyways i do believe i can be depressive i mean who isnt? but my granpa has manic depression and so does a couple others in my family, but i dont think its that bad. i just let shit get to me. anyways tomorrow when i get up early is the start of my new life. i marked down this date like 4 months ago, its weird but i knew i would need a change on this date, and here it comes. i have no job, my car's broke, i owe geico 200 bucks, i owe some chic more money than that, i still live w/ my parents, im a pothead, i have no girlfriend, in fact im sexually deprived, i hate all people, and most of all im hating whats around me. so new life tomorrow, i hope that pans out, im goin to awaken early and arise anew. however if i wake up late i know its more months of this shit, and i cant take that. so i must get through this shit, i have had a life of feeling like shit, but now that feeling only brings hatred to those i placed it in the first place. so you see i need a change, if not shit could get ugly, and i could hurt those i call close. but dont be alarmed, i am very self-controlled, once again i am just letting shit get to me. i hope a new path will open soon for that would be chill, i still dont know what i want to do in life, but i know i dont want to do this shit anymore. but i am glad i quit unos, i am no longer rushed, i have regain my sence of time. i no longer have to worry about 15 minute ticket times and what-not i just sleep and awake, its so simple. but ok i think i feel better after this write, if you actually read it thats your fault. damn im awed at how many "i" 's i see. hahaha. hey at least thanksgiving is coming, jessie mccarron, you better make the meal so good. haha i know you will, just learn how to make potatoe salad. lol anyways time to press enter