Antigonus: To laughter, as I take it, If the good truth were known...
so, sat around drunk people all night for 6 hours its ok though, i dont know where like 4 of those hours went, i must of been having fun.
tonight i saw the fakest and most insincere sincere person ive ever met in my entire life, i guess thats what some people act like when there all spun out, i think he is always like that though.
i also bonded with a lesbian who i have been to party's with previously. she kept asking me whats wrong, saying the hurt in my eyes was making her heart break. i almost started balling in front of all these 'straight' airforce guys. (two of them went into a room and didnt come out, also there was a picture on the fridge of them making out, awwwww.)
anyway, so a boy that used to be in the airforce (yes naomi, him) grabbed my hand and took me outside and sat with me in the grass and was like "whats wrong, you can tell me, its not stupid, lets share a cigarette." and then we talked and he was cute and it was almost romantic, the two of us sitting there on that little grassy hill. when we finished the cigarette and talk he got up and reached out his hand, to say he was going in (or so i thought) he said 'no' and grabbed my hand and pulled me up and started walking. he held on a little too long to be "just good friends", thats when i knew, and of course his friends/roomates had to come out side and kill it. he dropped my hand like a hot stone, and thats when i snapped out of it.
i need to believe what she said i need to feel it, that someone out there is for me, that until i grow up more, im not going to find anyone until then, and in the meantime, it will be devastatingly lonely, it was not candy coated, but id rather have the truth.
well i should really sleep, so good night everyone.
tonight i saw the fakest and most insincere sincere person ive ever met in my entire life, i guess thats what some people act like when there all spun out, i think he is always like that though.
i also bonded with a lesbian who i have been to party's with previously. she kept asking me whats wrong, saying the hurt in my eyes was making her heart break. i almost started balling in front of all these 'straight' airforce guys. (two of them went into a room and didnt come out, also there was a picture on the fridge of them making out, awwwww.)
anyway, so a boy that used to be in the airforce (yes naomi, him) grabbed my hand and took me outside and sat with me in the grass and was like "whats wrong, you can tell me, its not stupid, lets share a cigarette." and then we talked and he was cute and it was almost romantic, the two of us sitting there on that little grassy hill. when we finished the cigarette and talk he got up and reached out his hand, to say he was going in (or so i thought) he said 'no' and grabbed my hand and pulled me up and started walking. he held on a little too long to be "just good friends", thats when i knew, and of course his friends/roomates had to come out side and kill it. he dropped my hand like a hot stone, and thats when i snapped out of it.
i need to believe what she said i need to feel it, that someone out there is for me, that until i grow up more, im not going to find anyone until then, and in the meantime, it will be devastatingly lonely, it was not candy coated, but id rather have the truth.
well i should really sleep, so good night everyone.