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This will probaly be my last entry so I guess i'll try and make it worth reading.
Over the past few years ive met most of the people on my "friends" list, but now I dont know if I could even call any of you that.
A good few of you have seen the brighter side to me and your lucky to have seen that before I turned into the bitter recluse I've become.
I know im not the all-knowing Michael and i've olny just turned 16 yesterday, but yet i've already made so many life-long friends and expeirienced so many things before I even should have.
I'm finally putting my own thoughts together about how I make or have made descisions in the past or near future, I still can't vouch for anything i've done and probaly shouldn't have. I thank you the very few who have been there through these very delicate years in which I would mature and learn all about this phenomenon we call "life".
Alot of you have been really shitty to me lately and this is probaly why we're no longer friends, it's upsetting to look back and see all of my old friends and see how they carry themselves today.
Everyone who reads this will probaly not directly know what im speaking about or whom im speaking to, but im sure if you read this it will bring the best and possibly most wretched memories of you and I.
I've come to notice how all of you have either moved forwards, backwards, or just standing still. It seems like this town has a hold on all of you, I can olny think of a total of 5 or 6 people who could genuinely leave this town and NOT want to return or at least not frequently, I think I could actually leave here.
It really boggles me how everyone is so conceeded and also how no one remembers, forgetting of course is such a natural occurence, but to remember is even more pshycotic.
It's strange how here you have people you USED to be friends with, but no longer are and wont speak to them when you see them in public; In fact that really upsets me.
I also dislike how some of the people who I used to call my best-friends are now even to above me to wish me a happy birthday or maybe they are just too "lazy", because there is no other word to describe that lethargic wall that keeps you from being a truly good person and that small choice in which can make all the difference.
I love all of you for being part of my life and now I hate most of you, I dislike 99% of you, and I LOVE maybe 4 or 5 you till death.
I honestly think people should try to be genuine no-matter what the circumstances and no-matter how much you think the difference will be, because whether or not we are concious of it we are manifesting in this large pool of evolution and this is a signifigant time in history which of course will decide in years to come what our future will be based upon and in many many many years to come who will remember us?
Who will remember how life even began? I mean we already forgot why we are here, and we dont even know if anyone knows, but of course since we dont know that means no one does.
I think people should base their lives upon concepts which are accepted by all people and people should receive the amount of credit due for their good deeds preformed.
I know no one wants to hear this shit at all anyway.
In 2 days I am actually leaving, yes.
Im actually leaving Sarasota, this entry was not to disaprove of anyone or to reward anyone except to enlighten everyone who is interested enough to read my thoughts over the internet. I sincerely hope that people I see as decreppit and degenerate youth will eventually grow together and we can all live to grow together.
Id love for people to keep in touch with me and mail me!
786 Alta Lake Rd. PB 31
Whistler,British Columbia (Canada)
or see me on the ethernet at mikeadno@hotmail.com or AIM:philmreal
Over the past few years ive met most of the people on my "friends" list, but now I dont know if I could even call any of you that.
A good few of you have seen the brighter side to me and your lucky to have seen that before I turned into the bitter recluse I've become.
I know im not the all-knowing Michael and i've olny just turned 16 yesterday, but yet i've already made so many life-long friends and expeirienced so many things before I even should have.
I'm finally putting my own thoughts together about how I make or have made descisions in the past or near future, I still can't vouch for anything i've done and probaly shouldn't have. I thank you the very few who have been there through these very delicate years in which I would mature and learn all about this phenomenon we call "life".
Alot of you have been really shitty to me lately and this is probaly why we're no longer friends, it's upsetting to look back and see all of my old friends and see how they carry themselves today.
Everyone who reads this will probaly not directly know what im speaking about or whom im speaking to, but im sure if you read this it will bring the best and possibly most wretched memories of you and I.
I've come to notice how all of you have either moved forwards, backwards, or just standing still. It seems like this town has a hold on all of you, I can olny think of a total of 5 or 6 people who could genuinely leave this town and NOT want to return or at least not frequently, I think I could actually leave here.
It really boggles me how everyone is so conceeded and also how no one remembers, forgetting of course is such a natural occurence, but to remember is even more pshycotic.
It's strange how here you have people you USED to be friends with, but no longer are and wont speak to them when you see them in public; In fact that really upsets me.
I also dislike how some of the people who I used to call my best-friends are now even to above me to wish me a happy birthday or maybe they are just too "lazy", because there is no other word to describe that lethargic wall that keeps you from being a truly good person and that small choice in which can make all the difference.
I love all of you for being part of my life and now I hate most of you, I dislike 99% of you, and I LOVE maybe 4 or 5 you till death.
I honestly think people should try to be genuine no-matter what the circumstances and no-matter how much you think the difference will be, because whether or not we are concious of it we are manifesting in this large pool of evolution and this is a signifigant time in history which of course will decide in years to come what our future will be based upon and in many many many years to come who will remember us?
Who will remember how life even began? I mean we already forgot why we are here, and we dont even know if anyone knows, but of course since we dont know that means no one does.
I think people should base their lives upon concepts which are accepted by all people and people should receive the amount of credit due for their good deeds preformed.
I know no one wants to hear this shit at all anyway.
In 2 days I am actually leaving, yes.
Im actually leaving Sarasota, this entry was not to disaprove of anyone or to reward anyone except to enlighten everyone who is interested enough to read my thoughts over the internet. I sincerely hope that people I see as decreppit and degenerate youth will eventually grow together and we can all live to grow together.
Id love for people to keep in touch with me and mail me!
786 Alta Lake Rd. PB 31
Whistler,British Columbia (Canada)
or see me on the ethernet at mikeadno@hotmail.com or AIM:philmreal