Stairway to heaven..
I had a great day, and after the nights sleep I had I really needed it. I woke up last night almost on the hour of every hour I just couldn't get that image out of my head. I was just shocked. But whatever, have fun with that.
So up early I was today, had my shower before noon I did. Left with Brenna to catch lunch with someone wonderful. Brenna had a cracker for the first time today and LOVED it. She had it all over her face, and all over her arms.
Then off to the park we went (and I'll have pics to post later) She crawled all over me, and grinned so big. She has really missed me, and I haven't realized how much I missed her. I'm missing a lot of her. I really like this having her all day to myself. I feel like a real mother. She's here when I wake up and I'm here when she goes to bed.
Funny thing she did #1
So while I was cleaning her bedroom I was placing things in the corner so I could vacum real good. Ok while doing that a packet of oyster crackers fell out of a jacket pocket (don't ask) and out of ALL of her toys I had around her, while I was getting the sweeper she crawled over to the packet, had it opened and ALL over the floor grinning. I laughed like crazy watching her crawl around and try and put them in her mouth. They had landed on the blanket so they were clean. She loved them!
Funny thing she did #2
Once I was done cleaning her room I left her in the floor while I went to the bathroom. Now she had all over her stuffed animals around her so she couldn't really go far, but as I was getting my PJ's from my room I heard her in the doorway, and she had crawled the WHOLE way to my room from where she was and was reaching for me at my feet! How sweet is that?!
I wish this upon everyone, I hope everyone woman gets a daughter of her own. I think you deserve it. A child is a blessing, but a girl is wonderful. I see my own mother and see our relationship. She's always been there for me, and pulled anything out of her hat for me. She hasn't lied to me, and is always there to comfort me when things get hard. I'll be there for Brenna. I mean I love my step mom too, but never as much as my real mother. There is just something magical about knowing Brenna was part of me for 9 months. Even though her father is the biggest mistake of my entire life, I'm glad something good came from it. I'd sit through a hundred more of his bullshit stories to have Brenna. Perhaps that was God's intention. At first I thought I met him to pull him out of this lying crap, but I see it hasn't worked and now I know why were together. She's a blessing who I hope will make the world a better place.
Know that your actions can change the life of another. Know that even the smallest of smiles or the biggest lies change other people. So to the one who left me a post and then deleted it. I still got it, and I'm sorry. No more things about you, unless you deserve them, but no more lies. So far you don't deserve it, you haven't crossed any lines and hopefully you won't.
Anyway on to a lighter subject. I'm going to the Renn. Fair the weekend of the 17 and 18th, I think on a Sunday. It's romance week, and I will finally get to wear my wedding dress to something. Maybe I'll even meet a man with a REAL kilt! :) *squee* We can have a wedding under the stars in the middle of winter barefoot.
We'll have Halloween on Christmas.
So up early I was today, had my shower before noon I did. Left with Brenna to catch lunch with someone wonderful. Brenna had a cracker for the first time today and LOVED it. She had it all over her face, and all over her arms.
Then off to the park we went (and I'll have pics to post later) She crawled all over me, and grinned so big. She has really missed me, and I haven't realized how much I missed her. I'm missing a lot of her. I really like this having her all day to myself. I feel like a real mother. She's here when I wake up and I'm here when she goes to bed.
Funny thing she did #1
So while I was cleaning her bedroom I was placing things in the corner so I could vacum real good. Ok while doing that a packet of oyster crackers fell out of a jacket pocket (don't ask) and out of ALL of her toys I had around her, while I was getting the sweeper she crawled over to the packet, had it opened and ALL over the floor grinning. I laughed like crazy watching her crawl around and try and put them in her mouth. They had landed on the blanket so they were clean. She loved them!
Funny thing she did #2
Once I was done cleaning her room I left her in the floor while I went to the bathroom. Now she had all over her stuffed animals around her so she couldn't really go far, but as I was getting my PJ's from my room I heard her in the doorway, and she had crawled the WHOLE way to my room from where she was and was reaching for me at my feet! How sweet is that?!
I wish this upon everyone, I hope everyone woman gets a daughter of her own. I think you deserve it. A child is a blessing, but a girl is wonderful. I see my own mother and see our relationship. She's always been there for me, and pulled anything out of her hat for me. She hasn't lied to me, and is always there to comfort me when things get hard. I'll be there for Brenna. I mean I love my step mom too, but never as much as my real mother. There is just something magical about knowing Brenna was part of me for 9 months. Even though her father is the biggest mistake of my entire life, I'm glad something good came from it. I'd sit through a hundred more of his bullshit stories to have Brenna. Perhaps that was God's intention. At first I thought I met him to pull him out of this lying crap, but I see it hasn't worked and now I know why were together. She's a blessing who I hope will make the world a better place.
Know that your actions can change the life of another. Know that even the smallest of smiles or the biggest lies change other people. So to the one who left me a post and then deleted it. I still got it, and I'm sorry. No more things about you, unless you deserve them, but no more lies. So far you don't deserve it, you haven't crossed any lines and hopefully you won't.
Anyway on to a lighter subject. I'm going to the Renn. Fair the weekend of the 17 and 18th, I think on a Sunday. It's romance week, and I will finally get to wear my wedding dress to something. Maybe I'll even meet a man with a REAL kilt! :) *squee* We can have a wedding under the stars in the middle of winter barefoot.
We'll have Halloween on Christmas.