Shimmering Skin
I'm shimmering, absolutly glowing. I had a long work out today, sparred a little in the park and had an over all great day.
My grandmother is sick, so the family is in a mess, so it seems I'm the only one holding together. I have so much on my plate right now, but I really don't feel like bitching about it tonight.
However, the one thing I must say..Driving home tonight I started thinking about my past relationship, and how much I burn with anger when even I think of the littlest of things. How they were all so fake, and unreal. It just..makes my chest burn to think of even the sweetest little kisses. I still find them happy times, but I think..How could you?? How DARE YOU? Who the FUCK did you think you were???? AHHHHH Yeah, thats how I feel. I think my broken heart is starting to turn to hate. I'm mending more and more.
I actually saw my ex the other night in wal-mart and he was very refreshing to see. A great gentleman as always, but still Brandon. :) I hope Brian and I could have that calm like Brandon and I do now. Brandon was very helpful about Project X. He's always been so smart with things like that. In many ways I think thats what I really took out of that relationship. I left it with the ability to at least understand a little about everything.
I as well saw my old Props Mistress Laura, she looked awesome! Has a beautiful child with my old second in hand Tim Yingling, one of the best stage managers I know! Lol, I guess.
I miss Brenna..:(
My grandmother is sick, so the family is in a mess, so it seems I'm the only one holding together. I have so much on my plate right now, but I really don't feel like bitching about it tonight.
However, the one thing I must say..Driving home tonight I started thinking about my past relationship, and how much I burn with anger when even I think of the littlest of things. How they were all so fake, and unreal. It just..makes my chest burn to think of even the sweetest little kisses. I still find them happy times, but I think..How could you?? How DARE YOU? Who the FUCK did you think you were???? AHHHHH Yeah, thats how I feel. I think my broken heart is starting to turn to hate. I'm mending more and more.
I actually saw my ex the other night in wal-mart and he was very refreshing to see. A great gentleman as always, but still Brandon. :) I hope Brian and I could have that calm like Brandon and I do now. Brandon was very helpful about Project X. He's always been so smart with things like that. In many ways I think thats what I really took out of that relationship. I left it with the ability to at least understand a little about everything.
I as well saw my old Props Mistress Laura, she looked awesome! Has a beautiful child with my old second in hand Tim Yingling, one of the best stage managers I know! Lol, I guess.
I miss Brenna..:(