justprompts: Is there something you need to get off your chest?
Yes, there is.
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I feel like I'm becoming my mother. Marriage number one of, oh, how many?
We talked about a golden anniversary and we barely lasted a year. This is it. This has to be it. I'm not putting myself through this ever again. I don't want anyone else. And if Peter would just quit worrying about everyone else and take care of his family instead...
We really have a beautiful family. Lexie looks more like Peter than me. Henry thinks he's a superhero. (And he's right, he is.) Someday, when they're old enough to ask why it happened, they're going to realize how selfish I was. They'll look at me the same way I look at my mother. They won't understand and I won't be able to explain what I was thinking.
I won't even try to explain it. I can't do that without sounding like I blame Peter. Because sometimes, I do blame Peter. Nevermind the fact that I always knew what I was getting into.
If I can't fix this, is it really so wrong to settle for moving away? It's better than watching all of our friends take sides. I'm going to lose Nathan if I play this any other way. Why not be the one to take the step back? It'll be my decision.
There are some things in my life that I can still control. I've disappointed enough people in New York. Maybe it's time to give them a break from my problems. I could always get a house outside of Gotham, instead of living in the city.
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I hate that Henry and Lexie will never remember how happy the four of us were for a little while.
[Private]
I feel like I'm becoming my mother. Marriage number one of, oh, how many?
We talked about a golden anniversary and we barely lasted a year. This is it. This has to be it. I'm not putting myself through this ever again. I don't want anyone else. And if Peter would just quit worrying about everyone else and take care of his family instead...
We really have a beautiful family. Lexie looks more like Peter than me. Henry thinks he's a superhero. (And he's right, he is.) Someday, when they're old enough to ask why it happened, they're going to realize how selfish I was. They'll look at me the same way I look at my mother. They won't understand and I won't be able to explain what I was thinking.
I won't even try to explain it. I can't do that without sounding like I blame Peter. Because sometimes, I do blame Peter. Nevermind the fact that I always knew what I was getting into.
If I can't fix this, is it really so wrong to settle for moving away? It's better than watching all of our friends take sides. I'm going to lose Nathan if I play this any other way. Why not be the one to take the step back? It'll be my decision.
There are some things in my life that I can still control. I've disappointed enough people in New York. Maybe it's time to give them a break from my problems. I could always get a house outside of Gotham, instead of living in the city.
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I hate that Henry and Lexie will never remember how happy the four of us were for a little while.