fluid.
quit my job. slept for more than five hours for the first time in months. found some new music. enjoyed the quiet. bought beautiful fabric to cover the nasty glass desk in. there was a purply pink duck for a dollar at the counter. took it for a sign, and took it home.
teeter tottering on what to read next. learned that everything helps. i can feel the energy starting to build. bought some stone grey chucks. feel like i could kick some ass.
i'm relieved and a bit scared all at once. but scared is losing momentum, fast. and i've only been out of that place for a day.
it's interesting to focus so much on my own wellbeing. this isn't coping, this is growing. this isn't 'getting by' this is living.
time to stop admiring the people who live the way i was meant to.
it's impossible. i was born to be in motion, physically and creatively. what have i been doing?
but it won't do to look back. i have to be thankful for what's happening and what's coming. if i'm starting now, think of where i can go from here.
so for the moment i am examining the time i have to do the things i love and taking big deep breaths, the better to cleanse my soul of all the years of corporate bullshit it's been through.
here is a formal apology. dear self, i am very sorry that i put you through hell at several jobs, and that it's taken me 27 years to even begin figuring out what you need to thrive.
paint em red.
valerie
teeter tottering on what to read next. learned that everything helps. i can feel the energy starting to build. bought some stone grey chucks. feel like i could kick some ass.
i'm relieved and a bit scared all at once. but scared is losing momentum, fast. and i've only been out of that place for a day.
it's interesting to focus so much on my own wellbeing. this isn't coping, this is growing. this isn't 'getting by' this is living.
time to stop admiring the people who live the way i was meant to.
it's impossible. i was born to be in motion, physically and creatively. what have i been doing?
but it won't do to look back. i have to be thankful for what's happening and what's coming. if i'm starting now, think of where i can go from here.
so for the moment i am examining the time i have to do the things i love and taking big deep breaths, the better to cleanse my soul of all the years of corporate bullshit it's been through.
here is a formal apology. dear self, i am very sorry that i put you through hell at several jobs, and that it's taken me 27 years to even begin figuring out what you need to thrive.
paint em red.
valerie