Just an update about an older question I posted earlier and
because this'll be a bit longer I put it under a cut.
I posted a
question a few weeks ago. And the friendship-thing went quite well. We met a few times, went together to the sauna (where I felt kind of a tension) and yesterday evening we met on a Halloween party.
Everything was fine (more or less) until about 2:15 a.m. this morning when he started kissing a girl right in front of my eyes. It felt like he ripped my heart out and tore it into pieces.
The problem is that we wanted to meet with a friend tomorrow evening and have a few drinks. I told her, of course, because I was crying almost all day. She wrote him and asked him about tomorrow and said that he shouldn't hurt me any more. He wrote back that he and I have a lot to talk about, that he has to tell me that there won't be a relationship between him and me and that we shouldn't meet for some time, ignoring the fact that we even wanted to meet on Saturday.
He hasn't told me yet and I'm wondering if he knows that my friend told me or not about the message he sent her.
The problem for me is that, when I told him about my feelings, he said nothing about his feelings. The morning after we had sex for the first time we said we wanted to see where this will go, but apart from that he didn't say things like: "The only thing I feel for you is friendship."
Since I've got some psychic problems (trusting people, hurting myself, etc.) this time is especially hard for me.
I'm wondering if I should talk to him about it in person and really ask him what he feels for me. But right now my psychological state is rather weak and the next time I'm going to see my psychologist again is in more than a week's time.
I have no questions in particular, but if you have anything to say about this, please do so. (Sorry, but I just felt like telling someone that isn't involved directly.)