i was a little drunk and looking for company
i feel like my head and my heart are fighting a constant battle, always fighting, always finding ways to betray each other, always agreeing to disagree.
so as whatever this is grows my mind continues to try to beat it. to try to break it to try to ignore it. sometimes it works and it feels amazing. for the most part though its there sneaking its way through my body leaving everything it touches cold and longing. leaving everything it touches distressed and dead.
but its no ones fault, not even mine. these things just happen, you can't help them and you certainly can't stop them. you can create as many distractions as you want, they dont work either. so the only recourse here is to just ride it out. hope that it'll go away because the alternative isnt even worth thinking about.
honestly though, its getting old now. and i cant keep comparing everyone i meet to the incomparable.
what do i have to do?
i'm exhausted, leave me alone.
so as whatever this is grows my mind continues to try to beat it. to try to break it to try to ignore it. sometimes it works and it feels amazing. for the most part though its there sneaking its way through my body leaving everything it touches cold and longing. leaving everything it touches distressed and dead.
but its no ones fault, not even mine. these things just happen, you can't help them and you certainly can't stop them. you can create as many distractions as you want, they dont work either. so the only recourse here is to just ride it out. hope that it'll go away because the alternative isnt even worth thinking about.
honestly though, its getting old now. and i cant keep comparing everyone i meet to the incomparable.
what do i have to do?
i'm exhausted, leave me alone.