Ennui
I have the feeling my life has drifted into a period of ennui (listlessness; boredom). It isn't that new things aren't happening as much as just seems like everything is going extremely predictably. I just feel I could really go for a shock or something to change up my habits. Yet, it is these habits which seem to be supressing these new things to start with. For example, I would like to possibly ask out a girl and see where that take life but, I have been really busy lately so that I would have little time for dates and whatnot. Also, I am starting wrestling soon, so that'll be taking even more of my time and energy. What really scares me is that this is sounding almost like a midlife crisis; if I'm having a mid-life crisis does that mean I'll only live to be thirty?:p
I also think that I actually might be pushing myself this year. I don't spend much time slacking off on my work (except you could say right now) but I'm still just avoiding slipping in classes and I've been tired as fuck. I can honestly say this the first year that I have been sleeping in class where I truely lose conscienceness for about half and hour. I have really had times where I go to sleep after 11:30 cause I'm doing work instead of by choice. I wouldn't say I'm falling behind but I just don't have any slack or room to fall behind I guess.
Oh well, I'll finish being depressed in a few days/weeks and then after a day or two of happiness I'll sink back down.
Later
I also think that I actually might be pushing myself this year. I don't spend much time slacking off on my work (except you could say right now) but I'm still just avoiding slipping in classes and I've been tired as fuck. I can honestly say this the first year that I have been sleeping in class where I truely lose conscienceness for about half and hour. I have really had times where I go to sleep after 11:30 cause I'm doing work instead of by choice. I wouldn't say I'm falling behind but I just don't have any slack or room to fall behind I guess.
Oh well, I'll finish being depressed in a few days/weeks and then after a day or two of happiness I'll sink back down.
Later