The world..it's scary
So, it's taken me 16 years to truly realize, but the world is a scary place. Last night before I went to sleep, I had this feeling that I'd have a reason to feel unsafe as I walked home the next day and most of me dreams recently have been relating to trying to keep safe as I walked home. My dreams have a tendency to happen. That's one thing that is seriously scaring me. For one thing I know that I can be overpowered easily and really the only weapons I have are an umbrella, my lunchbox and my body..my body can't seem to do much harm. Then, tonight since I'm organizing the Transgender Day of Rememberance for the GSA, I was looking at the names,years and places where people have been killed because of their gender identity! First I'm gonna say it's their life why is anyone interfering with it! Secondly, where is our world with progress when we still have people being killed because of not conforming to the sex they were assigned! And thirdly, it's just sick! why should someone feel so strongly against someone they probably don't even know and end their life just because of something so....ridiculous as gender identity! I mean sure, supposedly it shapes the person but if someone goes against it, what's the problem!? The world is scary and ridiculous...now I know why I stay inside so often... Today as I walked home I actually feared for my life as I walked down the sidewalk..first I can't walk on one side of the street because my dream told me that the guy in the third house rapes and kills girls who walk by and now, I have to look over my shoulder every 5 seconds and to top it off..MY CELLPHONE WON'T LET ME PUT 911 ON SPEED DIAL!!!! I just can't handle all of this...I mean,why do people ever rape or kill others! Once you think "oh, the age of ignorance is over now we can move on" you realize you are seriously mistaken. It's all just rather frightening.