Observations

[data_desu]

...Pavlov and Onyx are getting along better than I hoped. And of course, my senpai are spoiling me in every way. Blanket forts and Pokémon movies are rather fun. I'm just about learning not to apologize for being a bother all the time, too.

Doesn't make my life suck any less, though.

Comments

Screened to Dan-kun

[raitei_no_youni]

We need to talk.

Well actually, you and Ryoma need to talk. You two need to settle things properly.

Screened to Sanada-san

[data_desu]

We talked fairly thoroughly. Hence we are not together anymore.

Screened to Dan-kun

[raitei_no_youni]

I heard.

Tell me something...Do you still love him? Would you still want to be with him?

Screened to Sanada-san

[data_desu]

Of course. I love him more than anything. But he hates me, so that makes little difference.

Screened to Dan-kun

[raitei_no_youni]

No, he doesn't. Not in the least. You are still his world and he needs you.

Screened to Sanada-san

[data_desu]

Not according to him. He told me to get lost, and I'm not going to force my company on him.

Screened to Dan-kun

[raitei_no_youni]

He told me himself that he loves you more than anything and that he messed up. He thought you would be better off without him and no he does not actually think you are a monster.

Screened to Sanada-san

[data_desu]

Yeah, well, that's not what he told me.

If anything, he's better off without me. Even if we did make up, we'd just start fighting again.

Screened to Dan-kun

[raitei_no_youni]

So you're not even willing to try talking to him again?

You're just giving up? I'm disappointed in you.

Screened to Sanada-san

[data_desu]

...I just don't want to hurt him again.

Screened to Dan-kun

[raitei_no_youni]

He thinks he's worthless and dirty...being alone is hurting him more than anything....

He's scared to death of sex too, but I think if he tries to set the pace and tops that he may just be able to do it again....

Screened to Sanada-san

[data_desu]

...I didn't mean to make him feel alone.

I've told him countless times we'll go at whatever pace he feels comfortable with. I don't want him to rush anything.