abyss = drama
OH MAN
thats all i have to say. i dont think i ever wanna go 2 abyss again cause it's just not worth it. i lyed to steve about going, because i didnt want us to fight about it and knew i wouldnt do anything. but a lot happened, like him knowing brittanys sn and my phone being off, and i knew i hadda tell him the truth. that didnt go over too well. he dumped me @ first, but now we're okay.. i think it was just a shock reaction thing. i ended up crying for like 2 hours straight.. i dont think i've ever cried so much & so hard @ one time before. he was more upset that i lied about it, then actually going..but i know he doesnt like me going. i really shouldnt have went, because it's bs and he means more to me than one nite of dancing. i cant believe i almost lost him over something so stupid. i really fucked things up, i know it wont be the same for a long time. now he's going away this weekend so i dont even think im gonna see him. sunday is our 6th month anniversary =/ ugh i am soo tired from being up til 5.. i hate myself for lying like that, lying a lot...seeing him hurt hurts me ten times more. uughh.. i cant even put it into words. i felt like my chest was torn in half.
i REALLY need to go tanning.. i havent gone since monday. n i wanna pick up my pictures.. they're gonna make me cry cause they're cute. ha
hold me now, it's hard for me to say i'm sorry.. i just want you to stay..and after all that you've been through, i will make it up to you, i promise you
thats all i have to say. i dont think i ever wanna go 2 abyss again cause it's just not worth it. i lyed to steve about going, because i didnt want us to fight about it and knew i wouldnt do anything. but a lot happened, like him knowing brittanys sn and my phone being off, and i knew i hadda tell him the truth. that didnt go over too well. he dumped me @ first, but now we're okay.. i think it was just a shock reaction thing. i ended up crying for like 2 hours straight.. i dont think i've ever cried so much & so hard @ one time before. he was more upset that i lied about it, then actually going..but i know he doesnt like me going. i really shouldnt have went, because it's bs and he means more to me than one nite of dancing. i cant believe i almost lost him over something so stupid. i really fucked things up, i know it wont be the same for a long time. now he's going away this weekend so i dont even think im gonna see him. sunday is our 6th month anniversary =/ ugh i am soo tired from being up til 5.. i hate myself for lying like that, lying a lot...seeing him hurt hurts me ten times more. uughh.. i cant even put it into words. i felt like my chest was torn in half.
i REALLY need to go tanning.. i havent gone since monday. n i wanna pick up my pictures.. they're gonna make me cry cause they're cute. ha
hold me now, it's hard for me to say i'm sorry.. i just want you to stay..and after all that you've been through, i will make it up to you, i promise you