i'm a victim of your charm
*sigh*
Christmas.wonderful.
I know i tend to sound like a broken record,track one on repeat,but this holiday season is the harshest i've ever had to face.i try to keep busy,keep tempo,stay off the drugs as much as possible(which i'll need to do if i'm going back to school)and allow myself no weakness.It's just so alien to contemplate an xmas without mom,judy,tim,or even debbie.I just have to wonder "what's next?"
I keep moving forward.i'm so close to getting out of this town that by the time taxes come back in,i can do move,and do so comfortably.Get away from this town,the damage,the memories.Get away from myself.
This is not what i want to be anymore.
I wish she could see what i'm finally becoming.
you were my best friend,and there's a gaping hole in me where you used to reside.
Times like these,i hate how logical i tend to be.If i could cower under the shield of religion,i'd relish in it's ignorant bliss.
but alas.
just gotta keep trucking.
i'll be away from here soon.
relying only on myself.
And you would've been so proud.....
Christmas.wonderful.
I know i tend to sound like a broken record,track one on repeat,but this holiday season is the harshest i've ever had to face.i try to keep busy,keep tempo,stay off the drugs as much as possible(which i'll need to do if i'm going back to school)and allow myself no weakness.It's just so alien to contemplate an xmas without mom,judy,tim,or even debbie.I just have to wonder "what's next?"
I keep moving forward.i'm so close to getting out of this town that by the time taxes come back in,i can do move,and do so comfortably.Get away from this town,the damage,the memories.Get away from myself.
This is not what i want to be anymore.
I wish she could see what i'm finally becoming.
you were my best friend,and there's a gaping hole in me where you used to reside.
Times like these,i hate how logical i tend to be.If i could cower under the shield of religion,i'd relish in it's ignorant bliss.
but alas.
just gotta keep trucking.
i'll be away from here soon.
relying only on myself.
And you would've been so proud.....