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[dashrendar3327]

something died as I grew older
and I did the best I could
I am glad
I am
glad
you found a good man

i am nothing to nobody and result in nothingness. i am alone and dying. i am a toxic human being possessed by the devil himself. i destroy everything i touch. slowly and painfully destroy. kaitlin, get out while you can. block my number and don't ever talk to me, because i will only destroy you if you even give me half the chance. i am the venom, i am the poison, i break down into your veins and blacken your heart. i will only hurt you. i will only make you hate yourself. i will make you regret. i will make you forget how to forgive. you will watch me die slowly, painfully, and without help.

God, how can you allow this? how can you let this happen? when you break someone down as you have broken me, how can you not allow me to finally leave? grant me that, please.

please
please
let me out
let my universe close out
it's time for me to go
it's time
time to go
take me back
my one wish
please :(

the way i feel makes me want to throw up. the way i am, who i am....it's too much. just too much. i'll never be able to handle this.