Sep 11, 2004 13:39
you know when i wrote my last entry, i didnt expect much of a response. instead it spurned off as of right now, 21 comments. ridiculous. in my defense, id just like to say that abbey, i did not write that purposely to piss people off. thats the last thing i wanted to do. secondly, im not a fucking hypocrite because for months ive been drastically cutting out my racism and hate-filled comments. the only times i make them are in pure jest or when im yelling at a family member, and even then i still feel bad. dont think that when i blow up on you, its because i want to. i dont like when i get angry, and i try my damndest to not become so. thirdly, who are you to write an angry response to a post you said was made to make people angry. you call me a hypocrite? i dont want to make anybody angry, i was just stating a point of view. if someone like shauna, (who is totally awesome, i didnt want you to think i thought you were stupid or ignorant shauna, that wasnt my goal and im sorry) gets to post her opinion, am i not allowed to post mine? because mine came after hers am i the one who is the bastard for making conflicting, insulting comments? that's hypocrisy. lets take all people out of this equation for a second.
i know by now youre thinking, this doesnt make much sense, well, it doesnt, i know, ive rambled. im gonna try and do it better now, so bear with me.
also, wheres the punctuation? fuck punctuation.
say person A states an opinion. then, not in response, but of his/her own accord, person B states a conflicting opinion. is person B to be criticized for stating an opinion that, 'tried to make people angry', when person A's comments could have done the same just as easily, if not easier?
say person B had used to support the opinion of person A, and still wrote his conflicting comments because his/her personal feelings had been, for whatever reason of his/her own, changed? is person B to be proclaimed a hypocrite because he/she changed his mind about an issue?
listen, i know ive done and said plenty of racist and hate-filled things in the past. but not once have i been serious. ive done a lot of thinking over the past year, especially in the past summer, and is it wrong that after thoroughly thinking about social issues, i decided the way i was thinking before-hand was not how i felt now? hypocrisy is not in what you say, hypocrisy is in what you do. when i get asked a question on a social issue or any other question that involves deep thought, it often takes me a long time to come to a decision on where i stand, and in the process i may switch sides quite often. that does not make me a hypocrite. if i were to say i was in full favor of black rights, then refused to hire black people at my work, then i would be a hypocrite. if i said i was tolerant of brazilian fast-food workers, then spit in one's eye and insulted his heritage cause he made me a faulty burger makes me a hypocrite. saying that i empathize with the homeless, and always giving them spare money when i am able to does not make me a hypocrite. saying that i believe in social security and medicare, and then not bitching about tax dollars taken out of my checks does not make me a hypocrite. saying that i am for education and programs to help society, and then being willing to vote for higher taxes to achieve such goals does not make me a hypocrite.
yeah, i know, i cant vote. but when i can, you can be sure itll be for higher taxes.
i dont really have anythign else to say except to whoever i pissed off, im sorry, that was not my goal. however, im not going to take being called a hypocrite when my everyday actions speak otherwise. your trying to do whats right by you, and im trying to do whats right by everyone.
everyone just chill.
have a good day.
peace.