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Just got off my shift and I'm so glad I wasn't there for that damn luau.
White Day was good. Didn't spend as much as I thought I would since Kaji and Saitou were happy to just muck around at the local park. Dunno how I was so wiped out I managed to sleep until half an hour before my shift.. We've got our routine down and dammit, I'm certain we'll be bringing home that trophy.
Time to start packing. Or maybe I should sleep. Taking Kenya out for dinner for his birthday tonight since he'll probably be preoccupied on his actual birthday.
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... That was awkward. So awkward. I can't believe how much of a third wheel I felt. They were being so careful with each other but it was so obvious they might as well have been making out in front of me. This weekend will be... interesting.
I had to put my photos away over the weekend. All of them. I haven't even taken them back out yet. Every time I look at them I think of Choutarou. On White day. It hurts.
Maybe there really is such a thing as being too lonely... It's been five years since I've been with someone, since I've been able to actually feel comfortable around someone. Kenya's the first since then but... he's more a brother than anything so he doesn't count. I'm still surprised how quickly we hit it off but... I guess we're so similar it was bound to happen.
Heh. Maybe I do need to get laid. The fuck am I saying. I don't need to do anything. I guess I'm just... lonely? Jealous? Yeah, that's it. Kenya's managed to get with Zaizen though that curse Marui mentioned is getting to me and Jirou has Yuushi to keep him company. They're the only two people really feel comfortable with anymore.
Screw sleep. Screw packing. I need to talk to aniki. And maybe get some nicotine patches off Yuushi. I can't afford any smokes for this weekend.
White Day was good. Didn't spend as much as I thought I would since Kaji and Saitou were happy to just muck around at the local park. Dunno how I was so wiped out I managed to sleep until half an hour before my shift.. We've got our routine down and dammit, I'm certain we'll be bringing home that trophy.
Time to start packing. Or maybe I should sleep. Taking Kenya out for dinner for his birthday tonight since he'll probably be preoccupied on his actual birthday.
Private
... That was awkward. So awkward. I can't believe how much of a third wheel I felt. They were being so careful with each other but it was so obvious they might as well have been making out in front of me. This weekend will be... interesting.
I had to put my photos away over the weekend. All of them. I haven't even taken them back out yet. Every time I look at them I think of Choutarou. On White day. It hurts.
Maybe there really is such a thing as being too lonely... It's been five years since I've been with someone, since I've been able to actually feel comfortable around someone. Kenya's the first since then but... he's more a brother than anything so he doesn't count. I'm still surprised how quickly we hit it off but... I guess we're so similar it was bound to happen.
Heh. Maybe I do need to get laid. The fuck am I saying. I don't need to do anything. I guess I'm just... lonely? Jealous? Yeah, that's it. Kenya's managed to get with Zaizen though that curse Marui mentioned is getting to me and Jirou has Yuushi to keep him company. They're the only two people really feel comfortable with anymore.
Screw sleep. Screw packing. I need to talk to aniki. And maybe get some nicotine patches off Yuushi. I can't afford any smokes for this weekend.