r.i.p.

[dashiee]

he died.... he fucking died... i wish i could have seen him... i dont feel like going to school.. or to work.... or to cabaret... or to driving... i dont care about anything right now... just right now.... u really dnot know how much someone means to u until u lose them.. u really dont... i knew something was up.. he had surgery.. .and they said he was doing better.. what a load of bullshit... u know what kills me.. the day before, he called and said that he got up and ate and did everything by himself... he sounded so happy... how could they fuckng let him die.. for the past few weeks.. i knew.. i could feel it.. any international call.. i didint wanna pick up.. and this morning it happened.. she pickedit up.. and it happened.. the call i was dreading to hear about.. i loved him.. no.. i do love him.. i always will...he was the wisest man i have ever known.. he was always rtying to learnmore.. and kept ajournal..

the laughs. the cries. the lessons. the memories. the love. - I will always remember. R.I.P.