suxes
ok.... i am in a pretty weird mood.
*males... you might not want to read this lol*
last night sasha and brittany talked me into going to a party where i felt really weird about going to but it wasn't that bad. i deserve to be there a much as all the other little sisters. and i was talking to nate before and he was like memorie sucks at life, not you, so don't let her get to you.
god people have been telling me that for years.
tyler is being odd like i was going to go home this weekend. to see him. to see nana. and because sasha and brittany are going and it was just going to be fun but i'm on my period and that makes me want to stay home. i love having sex with him but i feel like alot of the time that is his main focus. and it really really pisses me off and makes me feel like shit. like i called him today and was like i might be able to work so i'm going to stay here and at first he was like "so $50 is more important that me" and i said no but you don't realize how broke i am and he said "you don't realize how horny i am" and i was just like ahhhhhhhhhhhh. i know we're sexual people and we talk about it alot but just the sex is making me crazy. i hate my body... i really do its been "that time of the month" for like weeks now and most of the time i never know when anything is going to happen and its embarrassing and i cry. i just don't want to deal with it. i'm more than a sexual play toy.
whatever. i just can't talk to him about stuff like i'm almost 100% sure that if i told him how i was feeling and with the circumstances the real reason i wasn't coming home. he'd be like aww baby i miss you come home anyway but i just can't open up to him. like i feel bad, geez i have problems.
but i am excited about spring break!!!!
ok enough of this.
*males... you might not want to read this lol*
last night sasha and brittany talked me into going to a party where i felt really weird about going to but it wasn't that bad. i deserve to be there a much as all the other little sisters. and i was talking to nate before and he was like memorie sucks at life, not you, so don't let her get to you.
god people have been telling me that for years.
tyler is being odd like i was going to go home this weekend. to see him. to see nana. and because sasha and brittany are going and it was just going to be fun but i'm on my period and that makes me want to stay home. i love having sex with him but i feel like alot of the time that is his main focus. and it really really pisses me off and makes me feel like shit. like i called him today and was like i might be able to work so i'm going to stay here and at first he was like "so $50 is more important that me" and i said no but you don't realize how broke i am and he said "you don't realize how horny i am" and i was just like ahhhhhhhhhhhh. i know we're sexual people and we talk about it alot but just the sex is making me crazy. i hate my body... i really do its been "that time of the month" for like weeks now and most of the time i never know when anything is going to happen and its embarrassing and i cry. i just don't want to deal with it. i'm more than a sexual play toy.
whatever. i just can't talk to him about stuff like i'm almost 100% sure that if i told him how i was feeling and with the circumstances the real reason i wasn't coming home. he'd be like aww baby i miss you come home anyway but i just can't open up to him. like i feel bad, geez i have problems.
but i am excited about spring break!!!!
ok enough of this.