public post. [i am vindicated.]
this hurts so much worse than i ever thought it would. i want to talk with you or write it in a letter or fucking scream it at you until you get it, but i know that i can't. i have to keep it inside. i want everything and nothing to do with you at the same time.
i can't think i can't concentrate i can't sleep i have little appetite. i'm wrecked i'm jealous and i'm alone. i feel used and cheap and walked all over. i am walked all over. but i let you, i let almost anyone.
congratulations! you got the best of me, you can be proud now. you're words about never intentionally trying to hurt me or hoping this and promising that- you messed up kid. i hope part of you is smiling to realize you succeeded in breaking down the best thing you've ever had. the best love you've ever had. and yet i still will never wish malice on you. i want you to be happy and find what you need in life and be who you are.
everytime i catch your eye, every time i notice that you avoid mine, my whole body breaks and i lose my breath. i've lost way to many 'best friends' in my lifetime; i don't even want to imagine you not in my life. i don't know where to go from here except to leave it up to you.
<3
i can't think i can't concentrate i can't sleep i have little appetite. i'm wrecked i'm jealous and i'm alone. i feel used and cheap and walked all over. i am walked all over. but i let you, i let almost anyone.
congratulations! you got the best of me, you can be proud now. you're words about never intentionally trying to hurt me or hoping this and promising that- you messed up kid. i hope part of you is smiling to realize you succeeded in breaking down the best thing you've ever had. the best love you've ever had. and yet i still will never wish malice on you. i want you to be happy and find what you need in life and be who you are.
everytime i catch your eye, every time i notice that you avoid mine, my whole body breaks and i lose my breath. i've lost way to many 'best friends' in my lifetime; i don't even want to imagine you not in my life. i don't know where to go from here except to leave it up to you.
<3