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This journal is cursed. no doubt about it. right after i update about something the situation turns around and it's the complete opposite. like when i updated about davie, the next day we broke up. when i updated about dedrick, the next day we got in a fight. now that i said i was gonna come to TN to see dedrick we break up. well not offically yet, i'm just not talkin to him anymore. to make a long story short, he said it didn't matter if i came down for his birthday cause with or without me he was still gonna get fucked up and have sex and all that stuff. fuck him. why in the hell would i wanna be with someone like that? i can never find a good guy. i'm losing more than i'm gaining. i'm just glad i realize that before it goes too far. i'm jittery, i drank too much coffee. i found that if your stomach hurts it really helps tho. when my sister was here we called a chat line out of boredom and i met this guy that seems really cool. he lives in cincinnati, only like 10 mins away! hehe. he's funny and interesting..unlike dedrick! i just got done watching 'intervention'. i like that show. but i dub 'the first 48' the best show ever. [besided 'king of queens'] i think that's what i wanna do, be a homocide detective. i dunno if the whole cosmetology thing will work out for me cause the other day i was highlighting my sister's hair and it got me in such a pissy mood cause it wasn't doing right and i just can't see myself doing that everyday eventho i do enjoy it. whatever. i dunno my mind changes every 5 mins so who knows. well i hafta go to bed now..work tomorrow! byee.