what the hell ever
i dont get it i really dont. sometimes i really really hate being a girl! everytime i get ready to go out, i have lots of confidence and self esteem and i try to look cute....and then i get to the bar or the party or wherever it is im going and splat....the confidence and self esteem level hits rock bottom. i've just decided not to have any at all from now on. i always ask myself why guys never come up to me and i tell myself "you just gotta have confidence" well i do tell myself that and nothing ever happens!! EVER thats why ive decided to not have any at all. why bother....eveytime i think i have it it just gets shut down. and im not fishing for compliments or attention if thats what you all are thinking im doing. turst me im not. i dont even care who reads this.....i just need somewhere to put it all down. i always end up sitting by myself watching everyone around me make out. forget it...no more. im just gonna end up being one of those geeks who stays in on fri/sat nights doing homework. thats it....i have no self esteem or confidence.