Strangeness here....
Yeah, I know, more than one post within a week! But, I feel I need to do this to help get things in my life straight again. Today, I slept till 3p.m. I didn't even call into work. My boss called me and woke me up, he didn't seem very mad at me, so things are ok there but what bothers me is that I have no reason to have slept for so long. The last time I did that, as most of you know, is when I wound up going to St. Claire. I think it's time I started going to a therapist for my bipolar. I also want to get another tat now, one that represents power and beauty, strength and confidence, and also, the darker and lighter side of myself. This will be hard to find, but I think I will find it in the things that I hold close to my heart. Then again, all of this could be stemming from the fact that I am not happy with where my life has taken me. I do want to start anew and re-begin my life somewhere else and start everything over. But, I also know that if I were ever to do this, I would miss my old life and want it back. I guess that I will never be satisfied with what I have and will always want what I don't have. I should be happy with what I DO have, friends that care for me, an ok job that is laid back and understanding of me(kinda), and a loving family that doesn't give me much grief. I guess that these two saying fit best here: "People are never satisfied, no matter what" and "It can't rain all the time". Well, that is all for now. The Ferret, signing off.