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I have a date tomorrow. Not with New Guy, but with Budda. I know he's had a crush on me for a while, and I'm excited/apprehensive about it.
I know I can't just sit around. Germany is half way around the world.
But I don't want to date someone new.
Why did he ever have to leave?
This date will be good for me. Budda is such a good friend so I know I'll have fun regardless.
Why can't life just be easy? Why does Max have to be German?
Budda is so much fun.
Why can't my life just be normal??
I know we're supposed to be open and fair and whatever. But I can't shake the feeling that things are going to change.
Maybe he was just my first great love and it's done.
I don't want it to be.
I need to be fair to Budda though.
I don't want to hurt anyone.
& I think in the end everyone will be hurt.
Including me.
=(
The Fray pretty much summed up my Germany trip in 4 lines...
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
& you'll begin to wonder why you came
I know I can't just sit around. Germany is half way around the world.
But I don't want to date someone new.
Why did he ever have to leave?
This date will be good for me. Budda is such a good friend so I know I'll have fun regardless.
Why can't life just be easy? Why does Max have to be German?
Budda is so much fun.
Why can't my life just be normal??
I know we're supposed to be open and fair and whatever. But I can't shake the feeling that things are going to change.
Maybe he was just my first great love and it's done.
I don't want it to be.
I need to be fair to Budda though.
I don't want to hurt anyone.
& I think in the end everyone will be hurt.
Including me.
=(
The Fray pretty much summed up my Germany trip in 4 lines...
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
& you'll begin to wonder why you came