Do you think men and women can ever be just friends?
Heee... the dictionary word of the day is: castigate (to punish or criticize severely.) and it's such an ugly word! Sounds like... Masticate :makes ew face: (to chew) and that one just has all sorts of problems on it's own. LOL! It sounds like masturbate! LOL!! Yes, I'm 5.
Its Sunday, and I love Sundays. I think it's the most relaxing, luxurious, complacent day of the week. I want to spend all day lying down. On my bed, by the pool, with a book. And music! Music is good.
It's been a long while since I wrote a real LJ update. I figured it was time. Actually, I tried a few days ago but I was really mad. The message came out extra harsh. I guess the Gods where trying to keep me out of trouble because LJ ate my entry, and I think it's for the better.
I do hate feeling like people are taking advantage of me though. Use me up why don't you. Don't mind what I'm going through. Why should you care? Don't mind please and thank you because apparently I owe you something? AArgh.
How I end up responsible for all things all the time is beyond me. Must be my karma.
Thanks to all those that gave me such nice words of comfort over my Grandmother's death, you have no idea how much they mean to me. Tomorrow it will be a month. It's weird, I feel her everywhere. It's comforting actually. A warm fuzzy feeling.
In other news, and speaking of warm fuzzies, I'm in love. Not that it's a new love, I just found it again. I guess I seemed to have had misplaced it. When I lived in Ohio, my sophomore year in college, I met this guy at a club i used to go. He was finishing medshool and we liked each other, we flirted like crazy, but it never really went beyond that. We only saw each other when we went to this place and at some point we stopped.
About a year (maybe two) later we found each other again and started talking and talking and talking, and when we realized they where kicking us out of the place, it had been 5 hours since we started talking. We had great conversations about life, medschool, politics (even though he's a Republican). We took it slow, became friends, talked on the phone constantly for hours. And then we became more than friends. We went out for a long while. 5 years ago, Jason (thats his name) got a surgery fellowship at Houston Memorial (that's all the way in Texas), we talked about going together. At the same time my family was going through a rough patch, really bad. My sister and I decided to move back in, pay for everyone to move to Florida and help out until things were normal again. So Jason and I said goodbye one day. It was so hard.
The first year we emailed constantly and talked on the phone all the time. The second year wasn't as plentyful. After the 4th year we had stopped communicating at all. Until a month ago. It was 3 or 4 in the morning and I couldn't sleep, I was going through all this stuff over my Gamma's death, and he popped in my head. SO I emailed him telling him all about it. That morning I got a response, and it feels as if time hadn't moved. He's coming to see me. He's moving to Florida.
And I have butterflies the size of giant bats in my stomach!
EEEK!
I'm afraid I'm either gonna jump him when I see him... or I'm gonna pass out!
ETA: In case you haven't heard yet, coffeeandpie is now also an LJ community. Go join for Board news and Status reports!
Its Sunday, and I love Sundays. I think it's the most relaxing, luxurious, complacent day of the week. I want to spend all day lying down. On my bed, by the pool, with a book. And music! Music is good.
It's been a long while since I wrote a real LJ update. I figured it was time. Actually, I tried a few days ago but I was really mad. The message came out extra harsh. I guess the Gods where trying to keep me out of trouble because LJ ate my entry, and I think it's for the better.
I do hate feeling like people are taking advantage of me though. Use me up why don't you. Don't mind what I'm going through. Why should you care? Don't mind please and thank you because apparently I owe you something? AArgh.
How I end up responsible for all things all the time is beyond me. Must be my karma.
Thanks to all those that gave me such nice words of comfort over my Grandmother's death, you have no idea how much they mean to me. Tomorrow it will be a month. It's weird, I feel her everywhere. It's comforting actually. A warm fuzzy feeling.
In other news, and speaking of warm fuzzies, I'm in love. Not that it's a new love, I just found it again. I guess I seemed to have had misplaced it. When I lived in Ohio, my sophomore year in college, I met this guy at a club i used to go. He was finishing medshool and we liked each other, we flirted like crazy, but it never really went beyond that. We only saw each other when we went to this place and at some point we stopped.
About a year (maybe two) later we found each other again and started talking and talking and talking, and when we realized they where kicking us out of the place, it had been 5 hours since we started talking. We had great conversations about life, medschool, politics (even though he's a Republican). We took it slow, became friends, talked on the phone constantly for hours. And then we became more than friends. We went out for a long while. 5 years ago, Jason (thats his name) got a surgery fellowship at Houston Memorial (that's all the way in Texas), we talked about going together. At the same time my family was going through a rough patch, really bad. My sister and I decided to move back in, pay for everyone to move to Florida and help out until things were normal again. So Jason and I said goodbye one day. It was so hard.
The first year we emailed constantly and talked on the phone all the time. The second year wasn't as plentyful. After the 4th year we had stopped communicating at all. Until a month ago. It was 3 or 4 in the morning and I couldn't sleep, I was going through all this stuff over my Gamma's death, and he popped in my head. SO I emailed him telling him all about it. That morning I got a response, and it feels as if time hadn't moved. He's coming to see me. He's moving to Florida.
And I have butterflies the size of giant bats in my stomach!
EEEK!
I'm afraid I'm either gonna jump him when I see him... or I'm gonna pass out!
ETA: In case you haven't heard yet, coffeeandpie is now also an LJ community. Go join for Board news and Status reports!