Slow down everyone, you're moving too fast.
Sometimes I get into moods where I feel like I can see past my own perceptions. It's as if I can almost see into other people's lives. The simplest things such as facial expressions can tell me an entire story about the person I'm walking by, even though I may have never seen them before in my life.
My friend showed up high to class again today. He was in the "leveling out" period of being high, but I still couldn't stand him this morning because of it. I can see in his eyes that the world around us is not the same, and his words to me mean nothing because his views are flawed. Having different perceptions than your friend is way to learn; having different worlds between your perceptions is a gap that I cannot bridge. I realize our differences are for the best, but it still saddens me.
I was walking through campus, watching the people pass and the leaves fall, as I thought about what I wanted in life. I have always been the person who reinvents herself and finds the qualities she wishes to gain, but since I've moved up to college I've lost track of the attributes I worked so hard for. Independence is the characteristic I miss most about myself. I will admit I am a dependent person at heart, but loneliness has pushed me into a life I'd rather not lead. I know all of the problems I'm creating, and all of the common sense I'm ignoring, but I'm having trouble breaking free from my Id. I think my desire to become what I wish to be is slowly starting to outgrow my desire to be accepted and have someone's arms to hide in, which I am sincerely thankful for. I realize things are not as extreme as I make them sound in my generalizations, and each relationship and person has a story and a meaning, but what I need is to become a person I would admire. It's always a breath of fresh air when I receive the ability to step back and see things for who they are, and not what they are.
My friend showed up high to class again today. He was in the "leveling out" period of being high, but I still couldn't stand him this morning because of it. I can see in his eyes that the world around us is not the same, and his words to me mean nothing because his views are flawed. Having different perceptions than your friend is way to learn; having different worlds between your perceptions is a gap that I cannot bridge. I realize our differences are for the best, but it still saddens me.
I was walking through campus, watching the people pass and the leaves fall, as I thought about what I wanted in life. I have always been the person who reinvents herself and finds the qualities she wishes to gain, but since I've moved up to college I've lost track of the attributes I worked so hard for. Independence is the characteristic I miss most about myself. I will admit I am a dependent person at heart, but loneliness has pushed me into a life I'd rather not lead. I know all of the problems I'm creating, and all of the common sense I'm ignoring, but I'm having trouble breaking free from my Id. I think my desire to become what I wish to be is slowly starting to outgrow my desire to be accepted and have someone's arms to hide in, which I am sincerely thankful for. I realize things are not as extreme as I make them sound in my generalizations, and each relationship and person has a story and a meaning, but what I need is to become a person I would admire. It's always a breath of fresh air when I receive the ability to step back and see things for who they are, and not what they are.