From the towns that disappear, to the changes we begin to fear
Last night I officially told my roommates that I won't be able to live with them next year because I'll only be around for one semester. Betsy already knew because I've been talking to her about all of my living situation issues lately, but it was news for the other two.
Wanna know what they said/did? Absolutely nothing. It was as if I didn't exist and didn't say anything at all. Betsy tried to start conversations with them about finding a new roommate or finding a three-person apartment and they were just like "Yeah, we'll have to do that." That was it.
There was a time when it made me depressed to think that I didn't have any friends at school. It doesn't really bother me anymore. I used to think I had this great group of friends at home, but it was time to make new friends at college. Not that I wanted to chuck the old ones, just that I needed to grow and meet new people.
Well, I've met new people. Some of them I love, some of them I can't stand. But no matter how much I might like someone, we can never be friends the way I am with people at home. I just don't have that much time to put into it, and I don't need it anymore. I think that's probably the biggest thing - I don't need it anymore. I have all of my friends at home, I have an amazing mom (and family) who loves the shit out of me (even when she thinks I'm destined for hell), and I have a fairy-tale boyfriend.
So here's my late new year's resolution: make a better effort to keep those people in my life. It's stupid, but something as simple as writing on livejournal once in awhile helps a lot. E-mails would help, too. I want people to know what's going on in my life, because there is so much I do that I don't tell people, because I don't want to go on about myself all the time (but secretly I do). And I want to know what's going on with everyone else, too. How can we expect to stay friends after college without putting a little effort into it? We wont have winter break forever.
Wanna know what they said/did? Absolutely nothing. It was as if I didn't exist and didn't say anything at all. Betsy tried to start conversations with them about finding a new roommate or finding a three-person apartment and they were just like "Yeah, we'll have to do that." That was it.
There was a time when it made me depressed to think that I didn't have any friends at school. It doesn't really bother me anymore. I used to think I had this great group of friends at home, but it was time to make new friends at college. Not that I wanted to chuck the old ones, just that I needed to grow and meet new people.
Well, I've met new people. Some of them I love, some of them I can't stand. But no matter how much I might like someone, we can never be friends the way I am with people at home. I just don't have that much time to put into it, and I don't need it anymore. I think that's probably the biggest thing - I don't need it anymore. I have all of my friends at home, I have an amazing mom (and family) who loves the shit out of me (even when she thinks I'm destined for hell), and I have a fairy-tale boyfriend.
So here's my late new year's resolution: make a better effort to keep those people in my life. It's stupid, but something as simple as writing on livejournal once in awhile helps a lot. E-mails would help, too. I want people to know what's going on in my life, because there is so much I do that I don't tell people, because I don't want to go on about myself all the time (but secretly I do). And I want to know what's going on with everyone else, too. How can we expect to stay friends after college without putting a little effort into it? We wont have winter break forever.