mother of god.
hola.
SO. I really feel like I need to be in a relationship. I'm trying to be single. I'm trying to take time for me. but I'm just...not as happy. I like being excited to see someone and knowing that someone cares about me taht I care about just as much.
But. I don't really have time. I don't even know where to start either. and I don't know if I want to start b /c im scared. I won't lie. I'm pretty much scared shitless b/c of things that happened with the last relationship and I don't want to go through it again. I can't HANDLE going through it again.
and I know I need to tough it up and get over it b/c how else am I ever going to do it? but am I ready to do that yet?
I want to be, believe me.
I'm just worried I might not keep my standards up to par because I'm feeling...I don't know....not desperate...but like, ugh there's not a word for it. but you could imagine I think.
Ugh i need to get out of this funk I'm in and try to be happy with what I have and what I'm doing. Sometimes I just need a boost. or a boyfriend, rofl.
SO. I really feel like I need to be in a relationship. I'm trying to be single. I'm trying to take time for me. but I'm just...not as happy. I like being excited to see someone and knowing that someone cares about me taht I care about just as much.
But. I don't really have time. I don't even know where to start either. and I don't know if I want to start b /c im scared. I won't lie. I'm pretty much scared shitless b/c of things that happened with the last relationship and I don't want to go through it again. I can't HANDLE going through it again.
and I know I need to tough it up and get over it b/c how else am I ever going to do it? but am I ready to do that yet?
I want to be, believe me.
I'm just worried I might not keep my standards up to par because I'm feeling...I don't know....not desperate...but like, ugh there's not a word for it. but you could imagine I think.
Ugh i need to get out of this funk I'm in and try to be happy with what I have and what I'm doing. Sometimes I just need a boost. or a boyfriend, rofl.