grump and not grump
I have had a knot in my back, over my right shoulder blade, since sunday. It's annoying as fuck, it hurts like hell, it siezes up at inopportune moments and spasms, and occasionally it makes my entire right arm go numb in flashes (yeah, it's right on a nerve). I'm dosing with muscle relaxers and spending most of my waking time trying to find a position to sit in that doesn't hurt. This morning it shifted enough that it was right under my bra strap and ahhahahahahahaha fuck no I wasn't going to sit in agony for 10 hours of work/commute. fuck that noise. So today is a bra free day, three cheers for being small chested and it being winter so I can just layer on the layers and no one should notice.
My iMac went into the shop yesterday. Failed the video card check with flying colors (yay! that's what we all thought was wrong with it, glad that's it) the repair bill is perfectly doable, and instead of the 2 days they quoted they had it done in under 12 hours. Now I just have to go pick it up and I can be back on my normal computer with my normal keyboard and normal software. Wheeee! Though I've gotten quite fond of Paintstorm Studio and I think I'll just copy my brush set and UI settings over and continue using it, instead of Photoshop.
I've managed an average of 720 words a day this month, despite taking saturdays or the whole weekend off. The fic that doesn't have a name yet is ALMOST DONE. So almost I can taste it, and then I can start POSTING it finally, probably a chapter a day while I do final edits and clean up my inconsistent spellcheck. (For some reason, gdocs on the iPad and gdocs in the browser do not have the same spellcheck. Like, they catch different words. It's weird.) I will be happy to have this one done, and then torn about continuing Not a Romance, doing the shorter one that comes right before the unnamed one, or the longer one that comes right after the unnamed one.... hmmm. Have to see what I have words for. You know, it's kind of liberating, writing just for ME, really, and my dragon, because it's our headcanon, and god knows the greater WoW fandom doesn't give a damn.
I haven't done my sketch-a-day project this month, but I'm okay with that. I have, instead, turned back to digital art, spending most of the month practicing inking and now painting one picture. Slow as hell, but that's okay too. Got to get the hand muscles back into shape.
Had a somewhat amusing phone conversation with my Dad, the ER doctor, about the new prescription.
Me: *explaining about the ADD and how I'm taking Adderall*
Dad: Ahh, hmmm... well, I'd just say, be cautious. Don't buy into the diagnosis. Don't label yourself. I know you said you had problems multitasking but you're smart, I bet you have no trouble focusing really well on one thing at a time...
Me: *dryly* Yeah, hyperfocus. I do that. But only on things I'm interested in, and only sometimes. The rest of the time I can't focus AT ALL.
Dad: *audible lightbulb going off* ....ooooooooh. THAT. Well, yeah, in that case I'm sure the Adderall will help you a lot at work. You might not need it on the weekend.
*snerk* He was all geared up to give me the "you don't need a chemical dependency, you're fine the way you are" speech (Dad, despite his recent heart problems, has been Ridiculously Healthy for every other aspect of his life, has never needed to take daily pills, has never been chronically sick, and is a Medical Professional who I'm convinced has chains of alerts go off in his head for every pharmaceutical with side effects/interactions/etc) and in one sentence I managed to sum up why I needed it and he got it, presumably because he's seen those symptoms before but hasn't spent any extended time around me since I was a kid where he would have seen them in ME. I'm just vaguely amused by the whole interaction.
The Adderall continues to do well. The 15mg is keeping me up later then I probably should be up, sleep wise, but I expect as I get used to it that it'll drop back, and it does vastly increase my ability to be an adult when other circumstances are rapidly removing my ability to be the same. Focus is still a bit dicey sometimes - omg LOL, someone on tumblr described it perfectly, it's in a game when your attacks and abilities are all on cool down and you're button mashing and nothing is happening and your character keeps telling you "I can't do that. That spell is recharging. I can't do that right now." and THIS IS MY BRAIN when I literally can't make myself do or look at something, yes. But while it still happens it's not "this is the majority of every day" now. Ditto for the fog (which feels a lot like the interminable wait for a loading screen when gaming in windows 10, actually. =P)
Better is good. Better means more spoons for dealing with it when it's not working. And hey - 700+ words a day, and I'm drawing. I can't complain.
Crossposted from Dreamwidth. ::
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My iMac went into the shop yesterday. Failed the video card check with flying colors (yay! that's what we all thought was wrong with it, glad that's it) the repair bill is perfectly doable, and instead of the 2 days they quoted they had it done in under 12 hours. Now I just have to go pick it up and I can be back on my normal computer with my normal keyboard and normal software. Wheeee! Though I've gotten quite fond of Paintstorm Studio and I think I'll just copy my brush set and UI settings over and continue using it, instead of Photoshop.
I've managed an average of 720 words a day this month, despite taking saturdays or the whole weekend off. The fic that doesn't have a name yet is ALMOST DONE. So almost I can taste it, and then I can start POSTING it finally, probably a chapter a day while I do final edits and clean up my inconsistent spellcheck. (For some reason, gdocs on the iPad and gdocs in the browser do not have the same spellcheck. Like, they catch different words. It's weird.) I will be happy to have this one done, and then torn about continuing Not a Romance, doing the shorter one that comes right before the unnamed one, or the longer one that comes right after the unnamed one.... hmmm. Have to see what I have words for. You know, it's kind of liberating, writing just for ME, really, and my dragon, because it's our headcanon, and god knows the greater WoW fandom doesn't give a damn.
I haven't done my sketch-a-day project this month, but I'm okay with that. I have, instead, turned back to digital art, spending most of the month practicing inking and now painting one picture. Slow as hell, but that's okay too. Got to get the hand muscles back into shape.
Had a somewhat amusing phone conversation with my Dad, the ER doctor, about the new prescription.
Me: *explaining about the ADD and how I'm taking Adderall*
Dad: Ahh, hmmm... well, I'd just say, be cautious. Don't buy into the diagnosis. Don't label yourself. I know you said you had problems multitasking but you're smart, I bet you have no trouble focusing really well on one thing at a time...
Me: *dryly* Yeah, hyperfocus. I do that. But only on things I'm interested in, and only sometimes. The rest of the time I can't focus AT ALL.
Dad: *audible lightbulb going off* ....ooooooooh. THAT. Well, yeah, in that case I'm sure the Adderall will help you a lot at work. You might not need it on the weekend.
*snerk* He was all geared up to give me the "you don't need a chemical dependency, you're fine the way you are" speech (Dad, despite his recent heart problems, has been Ridiculously Healthy for every other aspect of his life, has never needed to take daily pills, has never been chronically sick, and is a Medical Professional who I'm convinced has chains of alerts go off in his head for every pharmaceutical with side effects/interactions/etc) and in one sentence I managed to sum up why I needed it and he got it, presumably because he's seen those symptoms before but hasn't spent any extended time around me since I was a kid where he would have seen them in ME. I'm just vaguely amused by the whole interaction.
The Adderall continues to do well. The 15mg is keeping me up later then I probably should be up, sleep wise, but I expect as I get used to it that it'll drop back, and it does vastly increase my ability to be an adult when other circumstances are rapidly removing my ability to be the same. Focus is still a bit dicey sometimes - omg LOL, someone on tumblr described it perfectly, it's in a game when your attacks and abilities are all on cool down and you're button mashing and nothing is happening and your character keeps telling you "I can't do that. That spell is recharging. I can't do that right now." and THIS IS MY BRAIN when I literally can't make myself do or look at something, yes. But while it still happens it's not "this is the majority of every day" now. Ditto for the fog (which feels a lot like the interminable wait for a loading screen when gaming in windows 10, actually. =P)
Better is good. Better means more spoons for dealing with it when it's not working. And hey - 700+ words a day, and I'm drawing. I can't complain.
Crossposted from Dreamwidth. ::
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