[grits teeth] oh look, MORE brainweasels
Current state of affairs:
* two assignments are late (one in each class)
* the monthly bill for school is due
* I haven't balanced my bank book
All of these things? Are things which hit my rabid brainweasels in the WORST way. Money matters make me twitch like nobody's business. I've been comfortably in the black for a good few years now - paycheck to paycheck, yes, but with a growing nest egg and chipping away at the debt and not late with anything. Current state of affairs (mostly having to do with loans and school) is putting me closer to the red than I like, and it's a paralyzing sort of rabid twitching in my head.
Class work is not much better. The "you MUST pass this class" coupled with the "you MUST get a B in order to get reimbursed (see above about finances)" is a sort of sledgehammer of pressure to my brain with the same sort of paralyzing effect.
I have avoided my email all morning because I knew there were going to be emails from professors and students accounts about ALL of that in my email. I only just now screwed up enough nerve to go clean out my inbox. (Sure enough, they were all in there. My professors, at least, are being nice about it. Student accounting and my student adviser and their #$*%&!^& vaguely threatening form letters, not so much.)
[takes deep breath] Ok. I'm caught up on work with Discovery. I'm going to go write up our mid-week opinion based mini-essays now, so that my attendance gets recorded. I'm going to go submit them and NOT look at the placeholder F's for the late assignments. Then I'm going to go finish up the late assignments. And then I'll pay the bills. This is the plan. I can do this. Honest.
* two assignments are late (one in each class)
* the monthly bill for school is due
* I haven't balanced my bank book
All of these things? Are things which hit my rabid brainweasels in the WORST way. Money matters make me twitch like nobody's business. I've been comfortably in the black for a good few years now - paycheck to paycheck, yes, but with a growing nest egg and chipping away at the debt and not late with anything. Current state of affairs (mostly having to do with loans and school) is putting me closer to the red than I like, and it's a paralyzing sort of rabid twitching in my head.
Class work is not much better. The "you MUST pass this class" coupled with the "you MUST get a B in order to get reimbursed (see above about finances)" is a sort of sledgehammer of pressure to my brain with the same sort of paralyzing effect.
I have avoided my email all morning because I knew there were going to be emails from professors and students accounts about ALL of that in my email. I only just now screwed up enough nerve to go clean out my inbox. (Sure enough, they were all in there. My professors, at least, are being nice about it. Student accounting and my student adviser and their #$*%&!^& vaguely threatening form letters, not so much.)
[takes deep breath] Ok. I'm caught up on work with Discovery. I'm going to go write up our mid-week opinion based mini-essays now, so that my attendance gets recorded. I'm going to go submit them and NOT look at the placeholder F's for the late assignments. Then I'm going to go finish up the late assignments. And then I'll pay the bills. This is the plan. I can do this. Honest.