Brass Spoons, Embroidered To-Do Lists, and the Brainweasels of DOOM
Ok. So. Currently - and for the next year - my life breaks down thusly on any given day:
I MUST
* go to work
* do schoolwork
I SHOULD
* do household chores
I REALLY WANT TO
* write
* draw
And that's not even taking into account things like my hobbies of reading, knitting, model making, or playing games. Those all get shoved on the back back back burner. They're "hobbies". Writing and drawing is not a hobby, it's my anti-drug and sanity salvation of choice.
So on any given day I have 5 broad categories of things which require completely different brain states in order to do. My brain HATES doing anything in halves, so it tends to throw up roadblocks - either I can sit down and complete something, utterly, or I have the absolute worst time trying to convince myself to 'waste' the time 'fiddling' with it. Because it won't be done at the end of it, so it's not knocked off my to-do list, so what's the point??
My brain is STUPID, for the record.
[sighs] I have roughly 3 spoons to cope with things on any given day, and on weekdays one of them is automatically given over to social interactions with Other People. v_v (you know, that thing that makes me not snarl and tear into other people because they're rude idiots monkeys and my feline brain classifies them as 'stupid prey'). Which gives me two spoons and five things on the to-do list. I'm usually getting by with breaking one of the spoons in half, which gives me half a spoon for any two of the tasks, one full spoon for an important one (which defaults to the day job) and two get dropped.
Right now, "drawing" is usually the one that gets dropped, along with "household chores". This needs to stop, as there is laundry to put away and dishes to do and a big bang that I really want to do art for (Ladydragon, don't worry! I *will* get stuff done. I've been known to pull off miracles the day before something's due, if I have to - I hope it won't come to that, but there WILL be stuff done for your fic!)
I can't - literally, now that the loans have run out - afford to fail any more classes. I need to write this in large letters on my mental post-it board. I possibly need to occasionally relocate the full spoon from work on slow days (like today) and relocate it to school.
...I'm babbling. This was just sort of the minor epiphany that I had during the commute this morning. It's easier to think about if I look at it as "five things" and then start tackling how I can more efficiently switch between one to the other with less lag inbetween.
I MUST
* go to work
* do schoolwork
I SHOULD
* do household chores
I REALLY WANT TO
* write
* draw
And that's not even taking into account things like my hobbies of reading, knitting, model making, or playing games. Those all get shoved on the back back back burner. They're "hobbies". Writing and drawing is not a hobby, it's my anti-drug and sanity salvation of choice.
So on any given day I have 5 broad categories of things which require completely different brain states in order to do. My brain HATES doing anything in halves, so it tends to throw up roadblocks - either I can sit down and complete something, utterly, or I have the absolute worst time trying to convince myself to 'waste' the time 'fiddling' with it. Because it won't be done at the end of it, so it's not knocked off my to-do list, so what's the point??
My brain is STUPID, for the record.
[sighs] I have roughly 3 spoons to cope with things on any given day, and on weekdays one of them is automatically given over to social interactions with Other People. v_v (you know, that thing that makes me not snarl and tear into other people because they're rude idiots monkeys and my feline brain classifies them as 'stupid prey'). Which gives me two spoons and five things on the to-do list. I'm usually getting by with breaking one of the spoons in half, which gives me half a spoon for any two of the tasks, one full spoon for an important one (which defaults to the day job) and two get dropped.
Right now, "drawing" is usually the one that gets dropped, along with "household chores". This needs to stop, as there is laundry to put away and dishes to do and a big bang that I really want to do art for (Ladydragon, don't worry! I *will* get stuff done. I've been known to pull off miracles the day before something's due, if I have to - I hope it won't come to that, but there WILL be stuff done for your fic!)
I can't - literally, now that the loans have run out - afford to fail any more classes. I need to write this in large letters on my mental post-it board. I possibly need to occasionally relocate the full spoon from work on slow days (like today) and relocate it to school.
...I'm babbling. This was just sort of the minor epiphany that I had during the commute this morning. It's easier to think about if I look at it as "five things" and then start tackling how I can more efficiently switch between one to the other with less lag inbetween.