Oh hi, Friday. Where did the rest of the week go??
I have two days - one of which is partially eaten up by a regular work day - to do more schoolwork than I want to think about. Part of which includes the ever favorite activity of Herding Cats in a #$%*&! group project. Yay. v___v
Despite this, I woke up feeling rather fabulous - I did yoga last night, a modified routine for people with injuries and arthritis and assorted other pains, and when I woke up this morning I was in my usual "one leg stretched out, one knee tucked up beneath my chin" sort of contortion and for the first time in weeks it didn't hurt. My hip (which I go on monday morning to go get xrayed) is twinging a bit, but nothing like it has been. Hurray for yoga!
And then I had breakfast, checked in on the internet... and lost track of time and was late for my bus, which made me late for work. Cue the decline of the mood. v___v Also, I did NOT accomplish as much last night as I would have liked, and the to-do list is still sort of stupidly long. It's hitting all my insecurities and paranoia and general feeling of hopelessness. I'm holding it at bay with sheer snarling determination (and mech pr0n. mech pr0n totally helps. oh dear lord, Optimus, why did I ever think YOU weren't the one I needed to worry about? [pencils a note for self that the kink meme fill idea just got a lot kinkier.] x_x)
I would really like to... I dunno. READ A BOOK. Or lay around guilt free for a day. Or paint some models. Maybe have the energy to actually, y'know, DRAW something for myself. Have an unencumbered space of time to WRITE.
Hell, I'd settle for PASSING THIS CLASS. (I do, in fact, have a prayer in heaven of doing so. If I do nothing else - except the required day job work - today and tomorrow. x__x)
....on a tangent, I am DEEPLY AMUSED that my GPA was formerly SO HIGH that I failed five classes in a row and STILL made the Dean's List. I kid you not. u___u
Despite this, I woke up feeling rather fabulous - I did yoga last night, a modified routine for people with injuries and arthritis and assorted other pains, and when I woke up this morning I was in my usual "one leg stretched out, one knee tucked up beneath my chin" sort of contortion and for the first time in weeks it didn't hurt. My hip (which I go on monday morning to go get xrayed) is twinging a bit, but nothing like it has been. Hurray for yoga!
And then I had breakfast, checked in on the internet... and lost track of time and was late for my bus, which made me late for work. Cue the decline of the mood. v___v Also, I did NOT accomplish as much last night as I would have liked, and the to-do list is still sort of stupidly long. It's hitting all my insecurities and paranoia and general feeling of hopelessness. I'm holding it at bay with sheer snarling determination (and mech pr0n. mech pr0n totally helps. oh dear lord, Optimus, why did I ever think YOU weren't the one I needed to worry about? [pencils a note for self that the kink meme fill idea just got a lot kinkier.] x_x)
I would really like to... I dunno. READ A BOOK. Or lay around guilt free for a day. Or paint some models. Maybe have the energy to actually, y'know, DRAW something for myself. Have an unencumbered space of time to WRITE.
Hell, I'd settle for PASSING THIS CLASS. (I do, in fact, have a prayer in heaven of doing so. If I do nothing else - except the required day job work - today and tomorrow. x__x)
....on a tangent, I am DEEPLY AMUSED that my GPA was formerly SO HIGH that I failed five classes in a row and STILL made the Dean's List. I kid you not. u___u