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People confuse me. I confuse me sometimes. Life is weird. How can you like someone okay, but be really tired of their issues, then when you find out they have a serious problem you feel softee toward them?
Does that even make sense?
I found out today that a woman I work with is dying of cancer. That... hurts. I like her a lot. She's always been a pretty good person to me. Yeah, she's a bit of a user, but who isn't sometimes? Her daughter, who also works for us, is the one who told me. I find myself softening up towards her daughter even though I've been angry with her for a very long time for personal reasons. Isn't that weird?
I guess I'm just another fucking bleeding heart. That's so fucking irritating.
But I really like her mom. And this isn't the first time someone has passed through our doors and we've lost them due to cancer. This will actually be the third. All people I really liked. And then there's the girl who either committed suicide or overdosed. We won't ever know. Her family didn't wanna talk about it. We were kinda close. I am so tired of losing people.
But I know this isn't about me. It's about them. This woman and her daughter are going through something horrible right now. And I feel for them. I don't know what I'll do when I lose my mom. Probably freak out and wanna die.
This just bothers me so much. I had a good cry at work, but it still hurts. Damn.
Does that even make sense?
I found out today that a woman I work with is dying of cancer. That... hurts. I like her a lot. She's always been a pretty good person to me. Yeah, she's a bit of a user, but who isn't sometimes? Her daughter, who also works for us, is the one who told me. I find myself softening up towards her daughter even though I've been angry with her for a very long time for personal reasons. Isn't that weird?
I guess I'm just another fucking bleeding heart. That's so fucking irritating.
But I really like her mom. And this isn't the first time someone has passed through our doors and we've lost them due to cancer. This will actually be the third. All people I really liked. And then there's the girl who either committed suicide or overdosed. We won't ever know. Her family didn't wanna talk about it. We were kinda close. I am so tired of losing people.
But I know this isn't about me. It's about them. This woman and her daughter are going through something horrible right now. And I feel for them. I don't know what I'll do when I lose my mom. Probably freak out and wanna die.
This just bothers me so much. I had a good cry at work, but it still hurts. Damn.