Story time
I wrote a second part to my previous fic 'Regrets'. The first part is here:
"Regrets"
And here's my new story:
Fix It All
It felt weird to be in her own form again, Shiho noticed as she got nearer to the park bench. She did not know what to expect, but an empty bench haunted her thoughts all the way to the wooden object hidden behind a large cherry tree.
When Shiho saw the blond hair of the boy sitting on the bench, she let out a breath she had not noticed she had been holding. He had come. Even though after all she had done to the boy, he had still come.
Shiho was standing right behind the bench when she reached out with her hand. She wanted to touch him, it had been so long. She decided against it, however, and just moved around the bench to face the young man sitting on it.
"I wasn't sure if you'd come..." Shiho spoke gently. Blue eyes watched her with no emotion at all as the boy started to speak. "You said you wanted to tell me the truth", he said. "And you decided to trust my word?" "I believe in second chances."
Shiho was not sure if she should sit down just yet. She had to be careful when dealing with the youth infront of her or she might never see him again. "I don't think this is my second chance", she spoke with her voice full of regret. "No, it isn't."
It was silent for a while. "Saguru..." Shiho started. "I'm-" "It's your twentieth third chance. Don't waste it." Shiho swallowed. Maybe this was a bad idea after all.
"Where have you been?" Saguru asked suddenly, not waiting for Shiho to say anything. Shiho had been expecting this. The question was a test. Saguru would not trust her again, unless she proved to him that she was serious about this.
"I've been..." Shiho trailed off, not sure how to continue. 'With Kudo Shinichi' would give Saguru the wrong idea. Not that Saguru would say so, of course. But he would still think it even if he did not say it.
"I've been hiding." It had come out easier than Shiho had expected. It had always been difficult to lie to Saguru, and not just because the boy usually saw through them. It was suprising how easily the truth came out after so many times of trying to lie.
Shiho felt Saguru's hand take hers and she was suprised when the blond boy pulled her to sit on the bench by his side. She was making progress, she knew this even though nothing about Saguru gave away his feelings at the moment.
Shiho spoke quietly but strongly as she told Saguru about everything she had experienced. About the ordeals she had countered, the friends she had found, the sacrifices she had made. Everything poured out of her, her insecurities and regrets. The only moment she stopped to think about the things she had said was after she had already told everything.
Saguru's hand was still holding Shiho's. The girl lifted her eyes to look into the detective's eyes. They were just as bright as Shiho had remembered. They were as bright as they had been before, before she had started lying.
"That was quite the tale", Saguru said. It was just like him to say something so out place in a complicated situation. Shiho still felt unsure. "Do you believe me?" she asked carefully. "Not the slightest bit."
Shiho's eyes widened in horror when she heard Saguru's words. She had been telling the truth! Why did Saguru think she was lying?
"I say you did like those kids in the detective club." Shiho stared with wide eyes at Saguru. "Excuse me?" she asked. "You heard me. You liked those kids even though you try to deny it. Your eyes were laughing when you spoke about them."
Shiho felt her cheeks grow warm under Saguru's watchful eyes. "They made me forget even if for a while", she said. "Forgetting might ease our pain, but it will only help for a little while", Saguru spoke. "We will only be lying to ourselves when we try to forget the things that make us what we are. Life can't be only made of good things, it's not practical."
Shiho could not help herself. The way Saguru spoke was so much like before. Overwhelmed by her longing she threw her arms around the boy's shoulders and hugged him tightly. "I love you so much, Saguru..." she said for the first time ever.
It was silent for a while. When Saguru did not react in any way Shiho finally pulled back to look at the boy. Had she made a mistake?
Shiho smiled fondly at Saguru, seeing the faint blush on the pale cheeks. She reached out to brush a strand of golden hair out of the boy's eyes. Saguru finally focused his gaze on her again. "Do you truly?" he asked weakly.
The smile on Shiho's face widened as she leaned in to kiss Saguru's chin. "I told you that I came here to tell you the truth", she said gently. "I...I think I...I think I love you too, Shiho." Shiho watched with facination as Saguru's lips curled slightly upwards. The smile was barely noticeable and it looked o a bit out of place, since Saguru had not been used to smiling for a long time. But to Shiho, the imperfect smile was the most perfect thing she had seen in her entire life.
OWARI
"Regrets"
And here's my new story:
Fix It All
It felt weird to be in her own form again, Shiho noticed as she got nearer to the park bench. She did not know what to expect, but an empty bench haunted her thoughts all the way to the wooden object hidden behind a large cherry tree.
When Shiho saw the blond hair of the boy sitting on the bench, she let out a breath she had not noticed she had been holding. He had come. Even though after all she had done to the boy, he had still come.
Shiho was standing right behind the bench when she reached out with her hand. She wanted to touch him, it had been so long. She decided against it, however, and just moved around the bench to face the young man sitting on it.
"I wasn't sure if you'd come..." Shiho spoke gently. Blue eyes watched her with no emotion at all as the boy started to speak. "You said you wanted to tell me the truth", he said. "And you decided to trust my word?" "I believe in second chances."
Shiho was not sure if she should sit down just yet. She had to be careful when dealing with the youth infront of her or she might never see him again. "I don't think this is my second chance", she spoke with her voice full of regret. "No, it isn't."
It was silent for a while. "Saguru..." Shiho started. "I'm-" "It's your twentieth third chance. Don't waste it." Shiho swallowed. Maybe this was a bad idea after all.
"Where have you been?" Saguru asked suddenly, not waiting for Shiho to say anything. Shiho had been expecting this. The question was a test. Saguru would not trust her again, unless she proved to him that she was serious about this.
"I've been..." Shiho trailed off, not sure how to continue. 'With Kudo Shinichi' would give Saguru the wrong idea. Not that Saguru would say so, of course. But he would still think it even if he did not say it.
"I've been hiding." It had come out easier than Shiho had expected. It had always been difficult to lie to Saguru, and not just because the boy usually saw through them. It was suprising how easily the truth came out after so many times of trying to lie.
Shiho felt Saguru's hand take hers and she was suprised when the blond boy pulled her to sit on the bench by his side. She was making progress, she knew this even though nothing about Saguru gave away his feelings at the moment.
Shiho spoke quietly but strongly as she told Saguru about everything she had experienced. About the ordeals she had countered, the friends she had found, the sacrifices she had made. Everything poured out of her, her insecurities and regrets. The only moment she stopped to think about the things she had said was after she had already told everything.
Saguru's hand was still holding Shiho's. The girl lifted her eyes to look into the detective's eyes. They were just as bright as Shiho had remembered. They were as bright as they had been before, before she had started lying.
"That was quite the tale", Saguru said. It was just like him to say something so out place in a complicated situation. Shiho still felt unsure. "Do you believe me?" she asked carefully. "Not the slightest bit."
Shiho's eyes widened in horror when she heard Saguru's words. She had been telling the truth! Why did Saguru think she was lying?
"I say you did like those kids in the detective club." Shiho stared with wide eyes at Saguru. "Excuse me?" she asked. "You heard me. You liked those kids even though you try to deny it. Your eyes were laughing when you spoke about them."
Shiho felt her cheeks grow warm under Saguru's watchful eyes. "They made me forget even if for a while", she said. "Forgetting might ease our pain, but it will only help for a little while", Saguru spoke. "We will only be lying to ourselves when we try to forget the things that make us what we are. Life can't be only made of good things, it's not practical."
Shiho could not help herself. The way Saguru spoke was so much like before. Overwhelmed by her longing she threw her arms around the boy's shoulders and hugged him tightly. "I love you so much, Saguru..." she said for the first time ever.
It was silent for a while. When Saguru did not react in any way Shiho finally pulled back to look at the boy. Had she made a mistake?
Shiho smiled fondly at Saguru, seeing the faint blush on the pale cheeks. She reached out to brush a strand of golden hair out of the boy's eyes. Saguru finally focused his gaze on her again. "Do you truly?" he asked weakly.
The smile on Shiho's face widened as she leaned in to kiss Saguru's chin. "I told you that I came here to tell you the truth", she said gently. "I...I think I...I think I love you too, Shiho." Shiho watched with facination as Saguru's lips curled slightly upwards. The smile was barely noticeable and it looked o a bit out of place, since Saguru had not been used to smiling for a long time. But to Shiho, the imperfect smile was the most perfect thing she had seen in her entire life.
OWARI