Catch up sessh!!!
Rightio. Where to begin? After a fit of anger I deleted all my old journal entries, which was more based on personal disgust at the man I used to be more than anything external. Currently I am actually fairly proud of myself. Ive stoped using drugs, which used to be a big thing for me. No longer self harming, Thats in the past. Finally made it to year 12, finding it hard, but i plan to persivere. Umm.. lets see. Whats happening in my life at the moment?
well, by some bizzare situation, I appear to attracted not one, but two members of the opposite sex. This is naturally a first for me, and frankly I am shocked, and annoyed at the results. I mean, for gods sake, MONTHS of nothing, then two at once. Jeebus. Anyway. Theres the old flame Rebecca, A blast from the past with a history to her, who lives over in New Zealand but is planing on visiting soon. Or theres New candle Natasha, who i must admit, is one of the coolest chicks ive met in a long time.
In a way, I relate to a Robert Frost poem I found in my english board of studies booklet, that every student in the state gets. I shall now recount this poem....
---> Here
The Road Not Taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really aboug the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, And I -
I took the one less traveled by,
and that has made all the difference
I suppose I could compare this to my own situation. Really my problem is what if....
1. I choose Natasha, end up not dating Rebecca, and regret it/it turns to crap with Natasha
2.Visa Versa
So yeah.
Matt gave me this somewhat sage advice today.
No winkie in the kitchen sinkie until Joel has a thinkie.
I think that is surprisingly good advice. cause there would be nothing worse than, Okay, i slept with you, now im going to go date this person over here.
In confusion
Dartanus
well, by some bizzare situation, I appear to attracted not one, but two members of the opposite sex. This is naturally a first for me, and frankly I am shocked, and annoyed at the results. I mean, for gods sake, MONTHS of nothing, then two at once. Jeebus. Anyway. Theres the old flame Rebecca, A blast from the past with a history to her, who lives over in New Zealand but is planing on visiting soon. Or theres New candle Natasha, who i must admit, is one of the coolest chicks ive met in a long time.
In a way, I relate to a Robert Frost poem I found in my english board of studies booklet, that every student in the state gets. I shall now recount this poem....
---> Here
The Road Not Taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really aboug the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, And I -
I took the one less traveled by,
and that has made all the difference
I suppose I could compare this to my own situation. Really my problem is what if....
1. I choose Natasha, end up not dating Rebecca, and regret it/it turns to crap with Natasha
2.Visa Versa
So yeah.
Matt gave me this somewhat sage advice today.
No winkie in the kitchen sinkie until Joel has a thinkie.
I think that is surprisingly good advice. cause there would be nothing worse than, Okay, i slept with you, now im going to go date this person over here.
In confusion
Dartanus