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Someone asked me why I don't seem to have any desire to date or seek a relationship.
You know. Its an odd thought. While I know the answer articulation is a difficult thing to do.
Humans need others. They need friends, lovers, confidants. We're not meant to be alone.
Yet at the same time the risk of having someone in your life is a thing that multiplies steadily. Its partially a thing of bravery, or mayhapse naievity to allow someone into your life. Some people don't have the guts, other people don't know any better. Occasionally you get freaks that don't like companionship.
I'm 25. I've been in love 5 times. I'm still 'in love' 5 times as well, in a way, because I don't belive in negativity, I just stop focusing on the person. I can remember all the fondness of them, even if to a person I no longer communicate with any of them. I've flirted up a storm a few other times.
Yet despite, or because of this, I have made the decission I'm just not..ready to have that in my life anymore. I don't think I ever will be. I have other responsibilities now. I don't know if there's enough of me left to devote myself utterly, and I don't like the idea of only partially doing anything.
I miss it. I'll admit it. I miss each and everyone of them for the friendship I had before, though the souring therin stains that somewhat. I miss my friends I lost too, sometimes, when I sit and think about how so many years ago I would have spent time with them instead of in soluitude.
I think alot about the campaign. There was a south park song 'you have the right to choose, between a douche or a turd'. I think it applies to our own campaign.
I like obama somewhat, however, he's a product of the illinois goverment, which is one of the most revolting to ever be...and well...I can't shake the feeling that he's just an attempt by party high ups to re-package the gubermant in a way they think people will 'like'. McCain I hate. So I can choose someone I don't trust, or loath.
Guess thats kinda simmilar to why I've chosen to give up persuing relationship at all. If nothing else, it grants more free time, which is an excellent commodity when you have nothing to do.
You know. Its an odd thought. While I know the answer articulation is a difficult thing to do.
Humans need others. They need friends, lovers, confidants. We're not meant to be alone.
Yet at the same time the risk of having someone in your life is a thing that multiplies steadily. Its partially a thing of bravery, or mayhapse naievity to allow someone into your life. Some people don't have the guts, other people don't know any better. Occasionally you get freaks that don't like companionship.
I'm 25. I've been in love 5 times. I'm still 'in love' 5 times as well, in a way, because I don't belive in negativity, I just stop focusing on the person. I can remember all the fondness of them, even if to a person I no longer communicate with any of them. I've flirted up a storm a few other times.
Yet despite, or because of this, I have made the decission I'm just not..ready to have that in my life anymore. I don't think I ever will be. I have other responsibilities now. I don't know if there's enough of me left to devote myself utterly, and I don't like the idea of only partially doing anything.
I miss it. I'll admit it. I miss each and everyone of them for the friendship I had before, though the souring therin stains that somewhat. I miss my friends I lost too, sometimes, when I sit and think about how so many years ago I would have spent time with them instead of in soluitude.
I think alot about the campaign. There was a south park song 'you have the right to choose, between a douche or a turd'. I think it applies to our own campaign.
I like obama somewhat, however, he's a product of the illinois goverment, which is one of the most revolting to ever be...and well...I can't shake the feeling that he's just an attempt by party high ups to re-package the gubermant in a way they think people will 'like'. McCain I hate. So I can choose someone I don't trust, or loath.
Guess thats kinda simmilar to why I've chosen to give up persuing relationship at all. If nothing else, it grants more free time, which is an excellent commodity when you have nothing to do.