where's the goddamn life preserver?

Feb 14, 2006 23:33

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
-the fray

i'm scared and all i wanna do is cry.
for the first time in so long i feel-vulnerable.
i feel lonely, and i know it's coming...closer everyday.
the blowout.
the end of an era. another lost friend, another lost soul.
i'm just biding my time..and it's misery.
i'm trying harder and harder everyday-and i'm getting tired.
and worn down. and bruised-not physically..emotionally.
so many have drifted out of my life...please please not her.
not my cookie.
she was there for me when everyone else walked out.
when everyone else simply turned around.
and i was there, with the door closed, locked out.
she let me in from the cold...and gave me a place to rest.
and i've rested...and i'm fine-but she's not.
and it kills me.
all i wanna do is hug her and tell her everything will be okay.
that everything doesn't have to be like this.
but instead, she's pushing herself farther away-everyday.
and that kills me.
i wanna save her...i wanna help her.
but i can't, and i've figured out that i never will be able to.
i'm a rescuer goddamnit! this is what i'm supposed to do.
but i've failed. and that scares me most of all.
i wanna save her life.
i want her to stay in my life.
but i don't know how....and it scares me.
all i wanna do is cry-and i cant.
because once again i've gotta be the strong one.
for her-and for me.
if i break now, then that's it...
i'm done for.

saveme

and i don't know what to do....

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