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[darlinglexi]

i hate it that i changed and of course its for the worst and i hate it that i let these things get to me that really shouldnt.. forget over-reacting i take that to a new level and its really not the way i want to be.. i want to be happy for the time i get to share with my friends and share the happiness that most of them are recieving, i want to be happy again by just being me.. although i am jealous of some peoples happiness and even some of thier saddness and how some can be close with that person or people and i somehow stray away from it.. i want the kind of feeling i used to get with my friends.. that i used to treasure every moment i shared.. just chilling in keris room with too much smoke in my eyes.. running around bergenfield trying to stay warm when we are freezing together.. sleeping on a couch somewhere .. even being at troys house.. i miss the close-ness i used to have with some people but then again i dont.. i bet everyone is getting sick of the same drama coming and going or there being no drama .. i hate the person that i have become and it will have to stop.. i just dont want to care anymore.. this all may sound familar.. i dont know but something happened.. something i dont like .. doesnt have to deal with anyone but myself and the way i believe some people percieve me as.. i wanna be someone number 1 i guess.. lol meaning i wanna be the person that someone will come to first.. someone that i feel the same way about .. oh well if it doesnt happen ill be fine cause ya know what.. i godda do homework.. dammit.. lol

melissa.. u are soooooo right.. im copying your idea.. seriously.. maybe not the exact school.. or maybe so but i would be able to have my car too and yay that would make things easier.. unless i find somewhere that lets me have my car.. thanks though.. sorry if copying you is bad but its a great idea.

SHOWS BIOTCHEZZZ... lexi and juz.. the locators... du du duhaaaaa.. cant do the mission impossible theme lol