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somehow yet again whatever I have done has been wrong.. seriously. I make a comment to a friend kinda joking not really and I definitly didn't mean what she thought I did... so i have done what any reasonable person has done...I ducked and covered. I decided to stay away from anyone that might even possibly get mad at me... well with one exception.
KRIS, i don't understand him. I don't think I ever will. he says he cares about me but doesn't seem to care if what he says hurts me. I am so confused and if anyone can explain this to me that would be nice. I want us to be friends and he says he wants the same but he doesn't act like he does. with anyone else I would give up on his ass and honestly I am still wondering why i haven't. theres only so much hurt you can deal with before you just become numb to it. I think i need to move on. I want too but for some reason something keeps pulling me back.
"i want to scream I want to cry but none will come"
on a happier note my classes seem to be doing ok oh and I finally came up with enough willpower to go work out today. I have lost three pounds so far and want to lose at least 12 by the end of the summer.. what goals I have.
oh yeah I almost forgot:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATT.... when you come back we will get drunk... TOGETHER
KRIS, i don't understand him. I don't think I ever will. he says he cares about me but doesn't seem to care if what he says hurts me. I am so confused and if anyone can explain this to me that would be nice. I want us to be friends and he says he wants the same but he doesn't act like he does. with anyone else I would give up on his ass and honestly I am still wondering why i haven't. theres only so much hurt you can deal with before you just become numb to it. I think i need to move on. I want too but for some reason something keeps pulling me back.
"i want to scream I want to cry but none will come"
on a happier note my classes seem to be doing ok oh and I finally came up with enough willpower to go work out today. I have lost three pounds so far and want to lose at least 12 by the end of the summer.. what goals I have.
oh yeah I almost forgot:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATT.... when you come back we will get drunk... TOGETHER