turn me on with your electric feel
HOMG I had some hot sex last night, for the first time in awhile, and then I had a MAJORLY HOT SEX DREAM this morning.
I haven't been feeling sexy lately for a plethora of reasons, among also the fact that the last gyno appointment left me feeling less than excited about my vagina. But last night... I was feelin' it! Yay! Mmmm. I've noticed too that since that appointment, any time I jack off (which has only been like three times since last Thursday) it's like ultra super strong and more satisfying than usual. Whooo mama.
The dream this morning was kind of fucked up in a way, even though it was sexy. I was like, two months pregnant or four months or something and something was wrong, and I went in for a check-up and my doctor had the hots for me big time. He was very handsome, and young, but I was kind of uncomfortable knowing that my doctor wanted all-up-ons. Anyway, my unborn kid was in big-time danger or something and he had to check out the situation, but I remember in the dream being really upset about the baby but totally apathetic at the same time...? ANYWAY so THAT'S not very sexy. The sexy part was when he had to check my basement to see what was up, and he started getting all touchy-feely in a really nice way and was touching good areas and he had he face down there too, and I was getting all into it, grabbing his head and touching his hair (which was long-ish, mmm). The ending was QUITE satisfactory, and then we ended up going on a date. Oh, and I lost the baby.
WEIRD. :(
Maybe I had that dream to reassure me that I shouldn't be afraid of the gyno just because I had one bad experience? (Although this dream was like, extremely in the other direction hahaha!)
When I woke up I continued the dream in my head and in my pants. WINK.
My sexuality is so strange these days. I wish I was just myself again, constantly thinking about sex and jumping on people like a horny schoolgirl and touching myself any chance I get... not so much these days! I know a lot of the reasons why, and I'm trying to fix them, but it's oh so frustrating. :/
PS. my bass is getting dropped off on Monday. OMG JIZZ!