This might be one of the most beautiful, amazing porn videos I've ever seen in my life:
http://www.tnaflix.com/view_video.php?viewkey=486be71b957e17dd996d I actually got a bit emotional watching it.
Everything about that video is so heart-wrenchingly beautiful. Her realness, her desperation, her wonderful secret solo masochism ritual. It touched me* on a very profound, personal level that kind of gutted me a little bit.
I wish I knew more about this girl.
I saw myself in her.
She just made my night.
(Oh, I also recommend watching the above with Nick Cave's "Let Love In" album. Especially "Do You Love Me" and "Nobody's Baby Now".)
Also, it's my birthday.
26.
Life goes on.
* = No pun intended, although I AM a big fan of puns!