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i never thought 2004 would ever come as a child. i remember hearing
that by 2004 i would be graduating high school and entering college,
thinking to myself that 2004 is sooo long from now and that by then the
world would end or something. now as 2004 has passed and 2005 stepped
in, im left contemplating where my 18 years of life has brought me. it
hit me how my childish dreams have became my current realities and how
different my once fantasized world has evolved into. i once wrote an
essay for my poli sci class with the thesis that innocent ideals are
not only road blocks to your journey for success but the causing
factors of ones failure. i wrote that although the thought of remaining
faithful to ones innocense can be exalted and seem noble, the harshness
of reality makes it nearly impossible and unwise for it to occur. this brings to my formation of my new years resolution: accept the way things are
how many times do i have to "discuss" with others how our group is growing apart? how many times do i have to complain about chris not being exactly how i want him to be? how many times do i have to whine that berkeley is hard and how difficult its going to be to become a lawyer? how may times do i have to mope that im not content with the friends ive made at cal? how many times do i have to compare my current status quo to the past?
what was was then and what is is now. was was great, and so what if is isnt as was was. i should be content that there still is a is and with the memory of what was. constantly comparing the past with the present makes me miss the joys of today. i realized i have to let go of my movie like world where prince charming is going to come and sweep me off my feet and live happily ever after. life isnt set up like a movie where people always seem to know the right thing to say at the right time. success isnt achieved just by merely wanting it, hardwork and determination are needed inorder to acquire it. i depend on others too much to not forget their cue when i need them or expect life to adapt to my every desire. when this doesnt happen, i not only feel disappointed but my morale is punctured as well. the upcoming years difficulties are extremely clear. i not only have to survive berkeley, but i have to survive with flying colors inorder to get into a good law school. i also have to keep current friendships strong as i search for new relationships to form and flourish. i have to be true to what makes me happy yet satisfy the desires of others. i am sure others will be facing the same difficulties which supports the arguement that i have to learn to accept things the way they are rather then being a girl and analyzing it more then what it really is.
its getting late and im writing out of my ass. goodnight kids. happy new years. see u around bye
how many times do i have to "discuss" with others how our group is growing apart? how many times do i have to complain about chris not being exactly how i want him to be? how many times do i have to whine that berkeley is hard and how difficult its going to be to become a lawyer? how may times do i have to mope that im not content with the friends ive made at cal? how many times do i have to compare my current status quo to the past?
what was was then and what is is now. was was great, and so what if is isnt as was was. i should be content that there still is a is and with the memory of what was. constantly comparing the past with the present makes me miss the joys of today. i realized i have to let go of my movie like world where prince charming is going to come and sweep me off my feet and live happily ever after. life isnt set up like a movie where people always seem to know the right thing to say at the right time. success isnt achieved just by merely wanting it, hardwork and determination are needed inorder to acquire it. i depend on others too much to not forget their cue when i need them or expect life to adapt to my every desire. when this doesnt happen, i not only feel disappointed but my morale is punctured as well. the upcoming years difficulties are extremely clear. i not only have to survive berkeley, but i have to survive with flying colors inorder to get into a good law school. i also have to keep current friendships strong as i search for new relationships to form and flourish. i have to be true to what makes me happy yet satisfy the desires of others. i am sure others will be facing the same difficulties which supports the arguement that i have to learn to accept things the way they are rather then being a girl and analyzing it more then what it really is.
its getting late and im writing out of my ass. goodnight kids. happy new years. see u around bye