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The last few days of my life have been, well, great to say the least. I truely cannot remember the last time I was this content.
I've been working, learning, and playing in such a way that is peaceful for me. Even gives me some balance if you will. I am very very happy that I moved to Holyoke. I really could not have moved in with two finer people. I adore my roomates. I really feel moving here has improved my life and helped it continue in a pattern that is healthy for me. Moving away from Berkshire County was the best thing I ever did for myself. People from Lee have been contacting me as of late, and I've come to realize what an incestuous sesspool Berkshire County really is.
I have also been diving into a new show, Nip/Tuck. I wasn't sure if I really would like it very much, but it proved to be sick, provocative, and twisted just the way I like it.
Sean cannot go without mention in here. Per usual. He came out here to visit me last night and I really feel that I saw a different side to him last night. More vulnerable if you will. Sean comes off to me most of the time as if he can hide his problems, brood about them, and deal with them on his own. Which in some cases is perfectly true. It's easy to read when something is bothering him, the problem is...how do I fix it? Well, last night I realzed that I really really can't do anything for him. I can only be there for him, be a friend and make sure he knows that he is never alone. I have come to love the person that Sean is.
I'll take solace in that.
I've been working, learning, and playing in such a way that is peaceful for me. Even gives me some balance if you will. I am very very happy that I moved to Holyoke. I really could not have moved in with two finer people. I adore my roomates. I really feel moving here has improved my life and helped it continue in a pattern that is healthy for me. Moving away from Berkshire County was the best thing I ever did for myself. People from Lee have been contacting me as of late, and I've come to realize what an incestuous sesspool Berkshire County really is.
I have also been diving into a new show, Nip/Tuck. I wasn't sure if I really would like it very much, but it proved to be sick, provocative, and twisted just the way I like it.
Sean cannot go without mention in here. Per usual. He came out here to visit me last night and I really feel that I saw a different side to him last night. More vulnerable if you will. Sean comes off to me most of the time as if he can hide his problems, brood about them, and deal with them on his own. Which in some cases is perfectly true. It's easy to read when something is bothering him, the problem is...how do I fix it? Well, last night I realzed that I really really can't do anything for him. I can only be there for him, be a friend and make sure he knows that he is never alone. I have come to love the person that Sean is.
I'll take solace in that.