FREEEDOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
living in this hell called my own mind, sucks all balls! im not quite sure how to escape it! I miss Todd. I <3<3<3<3 him! i miss jds jackass too i dont know why! but it makes me sad to think about him. ive been bummed out for like a week now and i dont know what to do about it! im a fuckin wreck! Flavorrrrr flavvvvvv im so fucking bored with life its regodamnediculus. i need drugs and alcohol! lots i feel as if i wanna forget something but i dont know what i wanna forget, nothings happened that i think i should forget. i guess i kinda just wanna forget me! thatd be kewl! I dont know man! theres a few people that i just cant seem to get over ir even kinda forget about to have a good time for a little while. i dont know why or where these feelings came from or what i should do to make them go the fuck away! I dont want it anymore, i dont want any of it! im done damn it! cant i just say i quit im a quitter and that be that! WHY THE FUCK NOT?!?!?! why are there so many rules, cant do this cant do that, dont see them, dont talk to that person, dont CARE about anyone other than me! WHAT THE FUCK OMG I HATE IT LEAVE ME ALONE LET ME BE AND BE ME!!!! why cant I??? every one else can why not me??? I feel like a faggot having to check in with mommy and shit but its not mommy its my fucking FRIEND! i thought friend ment supporting you as you and shit like that not changing and controlling and holding shit over your head for fucking ever, you can never repay this bitch! omg what the fuck do i do??!??!?!?! im never alone anymore i dont think i can take it! i havent been alone in 2 or more years, never ever alone! FUCK ME im losing my fucking mind but i dont know how to fix it! maybe one day i will escape, who knows in what way but i will fucking do it one day damn it! I will be free for lack of a better term! ONE DAY!!!! hopefully not too far off in the distant fog!